Aberfan - A Poem by Terry Breverton
CHALICE
After three inches of rain in the week, men working on No 7 Pantglas Tip arrived at work at 7.30 am…
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A 30 foot crater had developed in the centre of the tip. Just after 9 the tip moved.
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Within seconds it rolled down the hillside, over 20 sheep, covered some walkers on the canal bank, smashed through 8 terraced houses in Moy Road, and buried the school.
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9.15 am
21st October
1966
Just three hours before
The half term holiday was to begin at
Pantglas Junior School
Aberfan
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1 in 2 families bereaved
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There were warnings, of course
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As always
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The Lord helps them now as helps themselves
[Thanks to Lady Thatcher]
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They are the rich men, the hollow men, stuffed with air
Whispering no meanings, to show they really care........
Soft-talking, seductive, motionless promises,
They have the answers, the questions and the messages
Made-up, but not so false, for we know what they are:
Powdered faces, 5 houses and a Minister’s car.
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Aberfan
A round gross of crushed Taffs -A lovely cemetery with a white arch
For each of the 116 children
And 28 adults
Was built
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The deputy headmaster tried to use the blackboard to shelter the children in his class - all 34 were killed
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On a tombstone
“Richard Goldsworthy, Aged 11,
Who loved Light, Freedom and Animals”
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On another
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“The parting was so sudden
One day we will know why
But the saddest part of all
We never said goodbye”
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“I’r Rhai a Garwn ac y Galarwn o’u colli”..........
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Today’s your birthday
Happy birthday to you
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To ease the pain
But not the hate
Or “The Dust”
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“See those rows of white arches?
Each one’s a child.
You can’t imagine what it was like.
It was as if someone took the roof off your house,
Filled it up to the top with dust and dirt,
And then put it back on.
They found 6 of the children still standing up around their teacher,
It happened so fast”
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What a joke
Sup your brandy, Kingsley
Suck your rusk, Martin - how are the new teeth?
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Intelligentsia, it’s funny
It makes your brain go runny
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“My supervisor called me out of the mine
And we went to help.
A farmhouse near the school
Had been pushed right through it.
I didn’t cry until I saw them
Bring a little baby from the farmhouse,
Suffocated by the dust”
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Apart from the baby, the village lost a three year old, 7 seven year olds, 25 eight year olds, 35 nine year olds, 35 ten year olds, 5 eleven year olds, 1 twelve year old, 3 thirteen year olds and 3 fourteen year olds - 116 potential novelists
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Let the children sing
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“I can still remember the noise,
a tremendous noise, like a thunder
but magnified a thousand times;
it sounded frightening
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Some instinct made me jump from my seat and try to run for the door.
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After that,
nothing,
till I came round and found
myself buried up to my waist
in black slurry.
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The walls and roof of the classroom
had caved in
and beside me,
under the rubble,
was a little boy I knew,
lying
dead.
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Another child’s hand was hanging above me,
poking through from the next class where the wall had given way.
I took hold of the hand
and squeezed it.
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I still don’t know whose hand it was -
a child who was already
very probably dead.
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On that day
116 children were killed,
my younger brother Carl, 7,
my sister Marilyn, 10,
among them.
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I was eight years old
and spent the months
following the tragedy
in hospital with hip
and leg injuries.
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The world mourned for Aberfan,
but the focus was on the children
who had been lost
rather than those who had survived.
Everyone was so busy looking for someone to blame,
we were chucked aside,
forgotten.
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It was about 30 years ago,
and nobody thought about
our traumas and nightmares
then.
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The attitude was that you should be grateful
that you were alive. For years I never spoke
about what had happened.
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At that age I was too embarrassed to talk about how I felt.
I thought I would be laughed at.
All of us were brought up then to bottle up emotions,
to bury what had happened and
get on as best we could.
But I needed to get it out of my system.
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At 12, I wrote it all down in a blue school exercise book, every detail of what I had
seen and how I felt at the time and afterwards.
Nobody saw it but my family and one teacher.
After he had read it he did not even speak to me, he seemed so shocked.
My parents were horrified.
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It was another 20 years before I took it out and showed it to a woman who was writing a book about Aberfan. In the meantime, I had tried to forget and I was shocked at how forcibly it all came back to me. I realised I still had a great deal of suffering inside me, that I needed to talk and to think about how Aberfan had affected all of us who were involved. A lot of people had breakdowns, probably because they were never adequately able to share their grief."
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No individual was to blame
For a tip
Smothering
A school
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The Chairman of the NCB
Lord Robens
Claimed that they did not know
That the tip was placed on a stream
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What a scream
If you had but the chance
Who bloody cares as long as Income Tax is under 25 pence?
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That seems to be the going rate for discussion -Of course we’ll be forced to leave the country if taxes rise.
[Thankyou, Messrs Caine, Lloyd-Webber and Collins - be sure you take your
muzak and money with you as you close the door]
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“And in the end
The love you take
Is equal to the
Love you make”
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It has started
The white arches
are becoming overgrown tombstones
in abandoned graveyards in our memories
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‘Without a knowledge of history
One is condemned
To repeat the mistakes
Of the past’
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Who realises that ALL wealth
stems from some poor bastard
digging something out of the ground ?
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It never ends
every night
in tears
the “nightmare never dies”
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Mothers still die of broken hearts
Front rooms are their children’s shrines
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Miners used bare, bleeding hands to remove tons of slurry off the buried children - in the black slime they were afraid of driving a spade into a child’s body
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“When the tip collapsed on October 21, 1996, Idris Cole had been at work since 7.30am. He recalls that he and his colleagues were struck by an uncanny silence in the air just before the calamity. Here, (thirty years later) he reveals for the first time what happened next.”
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“Suddenly, someone shouted to my workmates that the tip had collapsed and was on the move. The main water pipe carrying water to Cardiff had been crushed with the weight of the tip and torrential rain, until it was like a wafer, causing the tip to slide down the mountain. We rushed to the school, wading through slurry which had gone through the houses over a large area and on down to the river. The whole tip had moved silently, like a volcano spewing lava, but this was horrible black slurry. The scene as we approached the school was horrendous and frightening beyond description - screams and shouts of mothers and fathers, some of them who had just taken their children to school and had stopped for a chat. It was all so terrifyingly unbelievable. In their panic, people were unable to think what to do.
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Their screams have never gone away. My workmates and myself waded on through the slurry and the rubble of the crushed building. I dived down to where I could see some of the children, the ones who had not been completely buried. Some, like rag dolls, were crushed against a radiator. And a teacher with outstretched arms, as if to protect the little ones. I was one of the first people to get right in the middle of it, and I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I recall one distraught father frantically searching for his two children. He was hysterical and kept pushing me away from what I was trying to do. He was out of his mind with anguish and had to be led away and physically restrained.
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I think I went mad myself, from what I was seeing. But I just had to get on with using my skills and trying to keep the slurry back. Some part of the roof was still there, but hanging dangerously. The skills of the building trade enables my mates and myself to jack it up to prevent further falls. We worked late in the night by the light of lamps which were brought in. I have never done so much crying as that day; we all did. The slurry was so deep, at one point I almost got sucked down into it. They had to pull me out and strip off my denims and my shirt, but I just wanted to carry on. Eventually, I collapsed from exhaustion and was carried off. I had double pneumonia and was given an injection which put me to sleep for many, many hours. I didn’t know where I was by then; all I remember is seeing the doctor bending over me to give me the injection.
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I don’t think I have ever felt completely normal since that day. I had experienced may horrors during the war, from the beaches of Dunkirk, to a naval battle on the battleships taking us to Malta where I served for three years. Malta was under siege, continuously being bombed, and on very meagre rations. From there, I went to Minterno and Cassino, where we had to bury many of our comrades who were slaughtered. But nothing can ever erase the memory of that fateful morning at Aberfan and the loss of 116 little children. It was much worse, because it was the children who died. Their laughter would never ring out again in that sad, sad, village. I can never forget it. Let no-one ever forget that terrifying, sad day - or the lesson to be learned.”
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Most villagers will still not talk about it
Grief is private
And unrewarded
The proud humility
Of non-acceptance
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An Appeal Fund raised £1.75 million from the British public.
The National Coal Board asked for £250,000 from it
And accepted £150,000
To meet the costs of clearing the remaining slurry
From the hilltops around the town
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The families of the bereaved were offered £500 each
Regardless of how many children
The National Coal Board had killed.
Eventually, the generous NCB
Gave £1500 per family
From the Appeal Money
It had taken
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Tiny front rooms in the packed terraces
Are shrines to the dead generation
And the generation of broken-hearted deaths
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The mine closed in 1989
''What becomes of the broken-hearted
Who had love that''s now departed………''
The 4,236 page enquiry
Banished all tips
From the edges of mining villages
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There is no money left
From the Appeal Fund
To restore the Portland Stone Monument
Or maintain the Memorial Gardens
The White Arches
Of the dead children
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The Fund built an expensive community centre
With no monies for its upkeep
So the local council took it over
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£1500 per family
The Royalties of Murder
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As bitter as he’s ugly
Just like his scabby daddy
This pox-scarred whelp
Needs some real help
Because he’s his mummy’s babby
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“No Iranian torturer could have elicited a greater variety of winces and flinches”
states Amis fils, being forced to endure the whole of the screening of
“Four Weddings and A Funeral” with one of his fellow illuminated glitterati,
Salman Rushdie.
They cannot leave early because of security reasons.
The great Rushdie explains that
“The world has bad taste. Didn’t you know that?”
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Blest are those with choice and no contempt
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Listen to John Evans, a miner aged just 47 and looking into darkness:
‘I’m glad I haven’t a son......It must be a heart-breaking business to watch your boy
Grow into manhood and then see him deteriorating
Because there is no work for him to do.......I’ve been out of work now for eight years,
And I’ve only managed to get eleven days work In all that time.
Work used to shape the whole of my life
And now I’ve got to face the fact
That this won’t be so any more.
I am really glad I live in the Rhondda.
There’s real kindness and comradeship here,
And that just about makes life worth living.
The spirit here in this valley helps to soften
Many of the hardships of unemployment.’
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Crush our language
Crush our men
Crush our youth
Crush our children
Turn the babies back to dust
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Parfait gentil knights
Sir Galahad and Sir Tristram
1982The Malvinas
43 Welsh Guards
Sitting ducks
In another futile English war
No-one was to blame
Although the captain was implored
To disembark
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“After all, it never would have happened if Mark Thatcher had been in the army instead of secreting millions of pounds in his Swiss bank accounts and why should multimillionaires fight for their country anyway they are far too valuable of course and just why should we pay taxes in Britain and what do you think of the claret, perhaps a teensy robust?” warbles the acclaimed novelist, wit and raconteur
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Unlike Simon Weston
The name with no face
Or skin
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Sing along now in your English cathedrals:
Glory Glory Maggie Thatcher
Glory Glory Maggie Thatcher
Glory Glory Maggie Thatcher
Hide all the cripples away
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Only complete heroes sit in the front, please,
You’ll upset the voters
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“Everywhere there’s lots of piggies
Living piggy lives
You can see them out for dinner
With their piggy wives”
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The pits have gone
Except for one
The dust is going
The wealth has gone
The slag heaps are going
The breed is still here
Uproot us if you can
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Our brightest and best
Are forced to leave
But they always come back
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You are in our country
You changed it
We made the money
You spent it
We held together
You used us
Take what’s left
And leave us
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Never understand
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............................Real ghosts.
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Deracinate intrenchant cultures, now!
And place fresh holly on sweet Jesus’ brow,
Slit sad sores, suck old pus,
And abetting of such sights,
Lose starving blue bridges of the sky,
Regretting rien for our plight, forgetting in the laxer light,
Shame washed with blood, disputes with death,
The hurdling towards night.
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Norman bastards…………………………..
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[This poem was originally written in 1991 while working in London, in response to Martin Amis'' opinion of Aberfan - that event was too painful to write about before I felt the anger inspired by Amis. It was updated in 1996 and 2000 and finally published in 2002. Quotes are from eyewitnesses, Lennon-McCartney, D.Gwenallt Jones, “The Dead”, Santayana, ‘Gwalia Deserta’ Verse VII by Idris Davies, and The Western Mail article upon Idris Cole upon the thirtieth anniversary of Aberfan. Martin Amis comments upon watching a popular film being worse than castration, rape and murder were in his New Yorker column in January 1996, and also reported in Private Eye, Feb 9, 1996. The remembrances of a survivor were reported in The Sunday Times, 15 September 1996, and Gaynor Madgwick’s book of dealing with the horrors of memory is ‘Struggling Out of The Darkness’, published by Valley and Vale in September 1996. John Evans is quoted in ‘Time To Spare’, 1935, by F.Green ]
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Footnote: After a workers’ buy-out, Tower Colliery is the only deep mine pit left in Wales, and was at risk because of a fire in Aberthaw Power Station, its main customer. The Poet Laureate Ted Hughes called the first version of this poem ''a fascinating assemblage''. By that he probably meant that it was not poetry, but Aberfan affected me profoundly, and I eventually had to write something to help purge my feelings. I can still cry about the event, so always try to shift it from my thoughts. I heard the news on my car radio, driving home from Manchester University to Barri in 1968. It was over 20 years before I could write anything. I was working in London and saw the Amis article in the Evening Standard that absolutely enraged me. In 2001, on BBC Radio Wales, I was promoting my ''100 Great Welshmen'', in a 3-way link with Gareth Edwards and Tanni Grey-Thompson, when a caller said that I should have included George Thomas in the book. I replied, fairly soberly, that it was not his sexual persuasion which had led to his exclusion, but the fact that no resident of Aberfan would think that he should be in the book. In secret Cabinet Papers, finally released under the 30-year rule, it had been revealed that it was George Thomas''s recommendation that the fund for the villagers be used by the government to clear the coal-tips. A producer at the BBC congratulated me after the programme, stating that the BBC toffs always laid out a special welcome for Thomas, treating him like royalty on his visits. I could never, ever understand the near-hagiography of Thomas''s admirers, even before the news of his betrayal was released - he seemed a deeply devious, Royalist, sycophant, and the very antithesis of a Socialist. One wishes, as ever, that the Welsh people would vote for people as its representatives rather than for the nominees of political parties. George Thomas = Lord Tonypandy = please fill in the box…………..