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One Sprinkling Day
One Sprinkling Day
"This is not a conventional novel. The author’s excuse for it is that the basic questions science and religion offer answers to aren’t asked only by scientists and theologians. Paul Crouch ventured into the maze of thought about those questions with no companion; one kind he would have liked was a book. If you have ever felt dissatisfied with stories, tread the maze with him, meet his friends with him, and live with him a day (like every day) unlike any other."
In the course of a walk which is at once a walk in a Welsh landscape, in the past, and in the maze of thought about some traditional perplexities, the protagonist’s reflections and the conversational self-portraits of his friends are interspersed with passages about the region’s history, natural history, and natural features.
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Excerpts
The room darkens, the swollen sky has over-brimmed again. In Pendinas, rain will be running down the glazed brick and granite of Pensarn Villa, varnishing the iron thistles on the Salem railings, streaking the lead-barred, wired-glass canopy of the arcade in Paradise Road. “If only it would clear up,” he says aloud, gazing down the vivid garden, “perhaps we might go out?”Not since those Brockhurst days had Lou pressed a flower or a fern, it was even longer since she had made patterns in plaster of Paris with winkles and cowries, small scallops and tellins, gathered as her father turned over the wrack on Pendinas beach after a storm. And her childish feeling for nature, awakened by him, was far removed from the anxious preoccupation of her adolescence. Yet she would soon know that it was strong in her still.
- A Guest in Glangyffin
“You can find wisdom in the East, also false gurus”, the holy man brings out, “I myself have had the opportunity to encounter with some, who are guaranteeing to open your third eye but are nothing but fakes, exploiting the ig nor rance of the masses.” (This, as opposed to a ‘higher understanding’, was the subject of his address.) “Now many young peoples like you are going to this sai babas , seeking the spirituality, who should be solving their problems at home. Of course,” (still more severely) “many young Indians are going gaga about the materialistic Vest—they are just lapping it up!”
- A Sadhu in the Suburbs
Paul gets home after dark—having ordered on the way Stern’s Mystics and Sceptics , just out—to hear from the hall a warm husky voice and to find their friend in the sitting-room, his long legs wrapped in a travelling-rug, peeling a tangerine. Mr Traube has caught a slight chill: he has gone round some of his old haunts again, and after saluting the ducks has had a plunge in the Serpentine. To this evening’s musicking, none the less, he contributes with brio, tackling accompaniments most enterprisingly; and when he joins in favourite songs by Gounod and Cornelius, Mrs Crouch is persuaded that he feels the appeal of the Christmas story, though she shrinks from speaking of it, suspecting he mightn’t wish to.
- Mr Traube’s Return
“I may just foray into Abergyffin and have words with Myrddin—I need copies of some transactions in Archæologia Cambrensis (excellent publication!). Trouble is, that could bring on the old Heuschnupfen ” (grimly). “I’ve avoided it so far this summer, and the weather’s just tolerable now, but after its recent freaks… Books were warping all over Cambridge, the Faculty and College libraries suffered disastrously. And my own—well, take my Beowulf , Klaeber’s edition, never before had I been moved to praise a set book, as I was by that handsome tome, and now it’ll have to be rebound at a cost of thirty-five shillings—no mean sum! But a truce to these woes. If you are venturing abroad you’d best head south—fewer cars, trippers, children and such Landplagen . Of course you won’t get far today, unless you’re biking it. Which was the other thing I had to mention. Come!”
- Leo’s Little Difficulties
Already on fastening the mountain-gate behind you, at the top of Mountain Lane, so steep and stony, where the flies were such a trial to Mrs Crouch, or on springing over the wall from a toehold, as her son had preferred to do, you were free of that craggy wilderness which, thinking to praise it, a Victorian traveller quoted by Mr Gryffin (librarian in Abergyffin, chronicler of Venedos, and author of a monograph on Venedos which Leo had lent Paul for bedtime reading) had called a little Switzerland. And you had cause to share the traveller’s enthusiasm. Only no Alpine pass Paul would view in later life would please his eye like that ‘Dry Valley’ through which the old post-road wound between Pendinas and Abergyffin, with its echo half way up, which in other years had rendered across the scree the rattle of their bren-gun to Mr Crouch and his comrades, and often since the friendliest greetings to him and his son. Nor for Paul would any Alp stand comparison with bald Bilberry Hill, which had seen his first serious scrambles, and where, with the grape-blue Carnedds behind him, as he fortified himself with cold tea and raisins (like a true alpinist, Mr Crouch had said, though there too once or twice, in a cavelet out of the wind, they had shared a hunch of bread and camembert, as Paul was to remember this evening), he had had such a prospect as no Alp would offer him—a prospect of the sea from the Giant’s Head to Mona.
- A Walk in the Past
“Sometimes, taking stock of my own life, I find it so far short of the fulfilment I dream of, I think of ending it, though I’ve never actually pondered how. Miserable mortal! to think of such a thing, with all your kind, unconventional friends, a comfortable home, a garden for your creativity that way—Kavanagh, how can you? Only that leaves out my never-sated sensuality. Oh to be old and rid of it! Not that it’s only sensual gratifications that make my life bearable, and occasionally joyous, but I can’t do without them yet. And it’s little enough I ask, God knows. But there, I don’t want to spread depression, it’s poor fun for you, my feeling my emotional pulse, as it were, while revealing the muddle which is my mind. I won’t talk like this any more—unless you particularly want me to? If only the right partner would appear, perhaps I’d lead a different life, more reflective, and my conversation wouldn’t be so lacking in ideas. I did tackle Mystics and Sceptics , but it’s so much easier to begin books than to finish ’em—especially Stern’s! We have a super little bookshop now, owned by a handsome actor, with just the stuff for me, all ‘fringe’ subjects and ‘cult’ authors. I haven’t seen any Mancy, but I shall ask Ralph to get some. He’s roister-doistering in London at present.”
- ‘Life is an Art’
“Up to now I know a few British authors,” he continues, “like Dickinson, Shakespeare, Stern… However, I bring more books than clothes—I just don’t believe the clothes been sold for ever-warm weather of Taiwan can suitable for freezing winter of England. It is said the English mostly dress for comfort and not for beauty, it is true? But what to bring for living? From London travel publication I learned that many bargains can be bought, but I don’t know these places.”
The connexions of heat with light, with electricity, with work, weren’t unfamiliar to him, who had wimbled leaves in her sunny garden with his grandmother’s reading-glass, lifted the leaves of a book with an amber bead, and in nervous delight, amid splutters of hot oil, watched with Henry Wright his small brass stationary steam-engine, drunk on wood-alcohol, whirring on the kitchen table. And if Henry had seen in the engine a source of power for his balsa-wood Great Eastern —a supplier of energy for the work of propulsion—, even Paul had seen that the engine’s output of work was related to its consumption of the sickly-smelling spirit.
- A Taoist in Bloomsbury
Without Paul’s ceasing to listen to him as, on his front doorstep, at the end of the first stone terrace under the mountain, that other August afternoon, Mr Roberts had explained how the granite was brought down from the rock-face to the sea (in wagon-loads from quarry-floor to crushing-mill, by chute and conveyor to the great storage-hoppers, by wagon again and steep inclines to the loading-quay, from which the small service-hopper supplied road, railway and pier), it was the stone-age quarry that Paul had seemed to see above them then, with its chipping-floors where Mr Roberts’s forebears (men from the high hut-circles whose cooking-mounds—crescents of fire-cracked stones—were still visible a stone’s throw from the modern workings) had fashioned picks and axes, querns and spindles, from rough blocks among the scree.
- Kay and the Dragon
Of course Paul no longer supposed that ‘reality’ meant the same in science as in religion, or in either as in everyday life. And since asking Song-Tao what was meant by ‘curved space’ he no longer thought of asking him what he had meant by saying that electrons were real, any more than of asking Dr Sprange his meaning in speaking of God as love. If in thunder and lightning he could perceive one event in two ways, need he wonder to have slumbered at two benches—the scorched and stained but solid one his senses knew, and that other, of vast spaces between whirling electrical charges, which alone was real according to Mr Wrinch? According to Song-Tao both were real, but as Paul now saw, the meaning of that word depended on the language in which it was used.
- Paul Crouch’s Problemizing
A truth then?—one account among many? Mr Wrinch must have found his own stool all too solid, since he had never sat on it without a cushion. In the human world an idea quite contrary to science might yet have its meaning. In Mr Wrinch’s form-room Paul had learnt that his heart was a pump, in Mrs Jenkins’s parlour he had asked for a heart that was pure. And at the highest level, by those who could reach that, electromagnetic radiation could meaningfully be called holy—
ofspring of Heav’n first-born,
Or of th’Eternal Coeternal beam.
- Mr Wrinch’s Last Lesson
“And what if I’d been in one of my hideously shy moods? You know the shrink’s theory on them?” He sits in the rank grass. She then, looking about her: “Our cemeteries are horrible, all those rows of headstones, big elaborate ones striving for personality, just make the loss of it sadder. I’d rather people didn’t notice my grave,” (spreading her old fawn trenchcoat near him) “sat on it even,” (then sitting on it) “if they found the graveyard a beautiful place, like this.” Sadie shivers. “Whenever I think about dying I get very upset, the feeling runs all round my body and freezes my brain. Paul, I don’t wanna get old. I said my Aunt Rhoda was over just before I left? She’s getting an apartment in our building. She is really getting old! I hadn’t looked at her for a while, and I felt so badly I went into my room and smoked. Things got cheerier then.” She considers. “With Sherrod we’re reading all sorts of things about life. Supposedly. They’re mostly about death, or the miseries of life and the futility of being born. Uplifting it isn’t. Anyway, Sherrod was talking about the Romantics and he said—and I guess he meant it for everyone—, he said love isn’t enough. Well, maybe I am a romantic, but I think it should be. Being in love should provide everything for you. But it’s Ruth I said was a romantic, basically.”
- ‘Love is Enough’
“I am pleased to have you asked me this. I had another thinking about God since our talk—when at leisure I always fall into deep thinking. You see, there are many things occur in past or present or near future, but not in infinite future. What can we explain? This is killer question, but I think” (fortunately replying to it himself, even as Paul was changing its ‘what’ to ‘how’) “there must be a force to make these things occur in finite time. Perhaps we may say that God is instructor of this force. I don’t suppose my viewpoint is correct,” he had added modestly, “the thought just only happen to my mind when in eye-glass store to get my glasses fixed. I don’t suppose it has something special, I am not mastering in these things, after all.”
- Song-Tao’s God
“And in a literal sense the expected event, which the Church still expects, fails to occur—although” (glancing at his listener sharply, as if Paul must be triumphing here, whereas only his bony forefinger, raised in a gesture as characteristic of him as clasping the Gita to his chest is of the Swami, and clapping his hands or scratching his shaven head is of the Lama,—only Dr Sprange’s lifted forefinger has checked an impulse on Paul’s part to seize his hand and thank him for his candour) “many scholars have urged that there was a real Parousia of the glorified Lord in the coming of the Spirit—I believe I state the view pretty much as noted by a learned body which re-thought many of the traditional doctrines in my youth.”
- Tea and the Kingdom
It wasn’t very pleasing, the Lama had said engagingly, to think that a person disappeared altogether. Paul didn’t know that the truth must be pleasing, but he was bound to ask why, if the individual wasn’t to survive, the great spiritual teachers had cared so much about individual salvation; why, if the suffering self was unreal, the Bodhisattvas had desired its release from suffering; or else what was to be saved or released. And with no sense of any but his familiar self (and what to him was ‘he’ else?) and his present life, with no sense then of profit or loss in lives foregone, could he be concerned if he was bound to the Wheel of Life?
- A Maze Without a Plan?
“Mrs Navsaria has put her finger on the nail. To fulfil your life’s purpose, this is not a cakewalk. You must develop your individual talent, but as offering to the God, not for own sake. And to unlock the self (true self, not ego!), to gain knowledge of real nature, the atma vidya that is Brahma vidya, —this cannot be done snappily. How long depends on our own volition.”
- The Wall of Paradise
"A pity, though, the travelling takes so long, ’tisn’t nice to wait about on draughty platforms, is it, Paul,” (hearing him cough) “let’s hope you haven’t caught a fresh cold coming down, and after such a spell of them, you must coddle up a few days, a cough can be so teasing, the chemist gave me some syrup for mine, which eased it, White Pine with Tar, and what a time you’ve had, George, the after-effects worse than the ’flu, to have been so queer from it, I blame the raw weather for most of our ails, I wonder, Lois, d’you remember poor Mr Mann, next door to Mrs Todd in Herbert Road? he passed away last week, used to walk so slow, last time I saw him going by to chapel he’d a job to get along, so thankful I can toddle myself up to Samuels’ still, though I do do some falling, Eva always cheerful and the shop nice and clean, as you say, dear, it’s sad, he was a good living man.”
- Piper’s Hill
How strange it felt, Lou’s father thinks now, the past autumn, set down at the wayside halt here for what he supposed the first time, suddenly to remember, on gazing up the weedy track, that (already long since a confirmed trespasser) he had led Lucie up it eighteen years before, with their daughter in her arms, to pick for her album a yellow poppy, seen from the carriage window as the train was stopping.
- Love and Frau Bernauer
So Paul had eyed the man beside him as they had waited to cross a busy thoroughfare on their way to the cinema once, when, excited though he was by the smell of petrol and the tumult in the streets, he’d not for a moment ceased thinking of what he had been told at lunch, and so had laid up other images besides, of flushed clouds at midnight above Ludgate Hill, leaping shadows on the dome of the Cathedral, a blizzard of sparks blowing through the City—images got only at second hand, from Mr Traube and his father, who had first evoked them on a Christmas-week morning as they stood at gaze together, still strangers to each other, amid twisted chandeliers and the fragments of a gilded ceiling.
- A Choice of Life
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Interview
AmeriCymru: Hi Peter and many thanks for agreeing to this interview. Care to introduce your novel, 'One Sprinkling Day' for our readers?
Peter: Thank you for inviting me to. After finishing this book at long last I soon learned two things that surprised me. One was that in England the final judges in literary matters aren’t critics or professors or publishers, let alone writers, but literary agents. The other was that according to literary agents a novel is a story with a beginning, a middle and an end, which you can tell them in a paragraph. I had, before this, read E.M. Forster’s words, ‘Yes—oh dear yes—the novel tells a story’, which if you mistake the tone you might think were meant as an apology for novels in general or a justification of his own in particular. Really they were an ironic rebuke to any readers who felt that some of his contemporaries with no interest in story-telling had written better novels than he had. He may have been a friend of Virginia Woolf’s, we needn’t follow her in including him among the ‘modernists’. They themselves don’t seem so modern now, and they haven’t much in common, but none of them ever wrote a rattling good yarn. Neither did Forster, still a rattling yarn fits his idea of the novel, whereas their explorations of the inner life, their rendering of the actual quality of experience, their ‘non-linear’ kinds of construction (Proust’s ‘chessboard’ treatment of themes, for example), made Forster’s fiction seem old-fashioned.
Yet even to fiction much less conventional than his he could be responsive enough. It was his appreciation of The Leopard that got it its due even in Italy and in ‘the world of literature’, though we needn’t believe that all who hailed it then could really see any merit in it. I’m afraid that in a case like this or the earlier ‘Svevo affair’ many readers of the book only praise it because others are doing so.Of course, novels that were hardly stories had been written before the modernists‘. (Already before Joyce, hadn’t even Firbank’s plots been pretty wispy?) I suppose most of the great novels that relate events (as Kidnapped does) rather than develop themes (as already Niels Lyhne does) were written in the 19th century, and one or two of them were by Flaubert, still Flaubert when he wrote most spontaneously produced Novembre, and ‘L’action y est nulle’. And it’s in an inner journey that all the interest of Loss and Gain lies, if Newman’s path to Rome does interest you. Going even further back, to the only work of fiction by the greatest English writer of the previous century, to Rasselas,—as Professor Hiller said, we don’t read Rasselas for the story. But no doubt it was from the turn of the 19th century on that the scope of fiction was seriously extended. So Jean Santeuil reveals the author’s hidden self, in Malte Laurids Brigge as in Hunger an alienated consciousness confronts a modern city, Giacomo Joyce like Niels Lyhne brings into fiction a strange poetic realism, The Last Summer offers a transcript of life,—but none of them tells a story with a beginning, a middle and an end. (Musil had begun to find his themes well before he began to write The Man Without Qualities, but Young Törless is a story of sorts, and whether or not The Man Without Qualities is a story, it only lacks an ending because Musil didn’t live to write one.) And although I have enjoyed Kidnapped more than all these books except Jean Santeuil, I don’t think it has enlarged my mind as they have.
In writing this novel of mine, however, I had no model. (I understand that after Joyce the plotless novel had a vogue, but I know Lawrence Durrell’s The Black Book and other examples only by name.) I was only concerned to find a form for what I had to say. So I hope I shan’t be blamed for not doing what I didn’t try to do, and I’m grateful to you for not asking me ‘what the story is’! I can though say that this is the story of a day, as the title indicates, and one kind of movement in the book is accordingly a forward movement from morning to night. But as life is being as well as doing, there is also an inward movement, through the main character’s memories and reflections.
Not that I have gone as far as Gissing did in Ryecroft, and thrown over action, plot, dialogue and even character-drawing. (Wasn’t an interest in character the mark of the novelist as Virginia Woolf saw it?) I didn’t set out to throw over any traditional elements. If One Sprinkling Day isn’t a novel of action neither is it merely a vehicle for ideas. The ideas are bound up with the characters (and it was the characters more than their ideas who interested the author). Thus ‘the choice of life’ (to borrow a phrase Johnson used for Rasselas’s original title) is variously illustrated by the inquirer’s new friend Sadie (a New Yorker abroad) and old friend Kay (a gay schoolmaster), by his host’s wife, daughter and stepson (an ambitious young historian), and chiefly by his father and his host himself (a former fugitive from Hitler’s Germany)—though in this way again the movement of the novel is not that of conventional narration but one of progressive disclosure, as these characters reveal themselves to the main character and so to the reader.
Although I had no theory of the novel, I did have an idea of what I was trying to write. Not a ‘guide for the perplexed’, which I was unqualified to write, but perhaps the vade-mecum Paul Crouch (the main character) had lacked—the book (as the publisher’s blurb was to say) he would have liked with him in the maze. So the readers I was hoping for were mostly ones who, like me, were unsatisfied with stories and wanted more food for thought than fiction generally supplies. But if at the same time I could provide a little light reading for readers with scientific and philosophical interests, I should be delighted.
Would the book be a novel? To say that Rasselas is an oriental apologue at least conveys some idea of it. To say that Rasselas (or Candide or Nightmare Abbey or On the Marble Cliffs) is not a novel only raises the question what a novel is. I thought the question unimportant (I have thought differently since: ‘What Is A Novel?’). What mattered to me was the idea of that ‘inquiry into some traditional perplexities’ (as I have called it elsewhere) pursued through the medium of literary fiction. As I wrote on, of course, it was borne in on me that if I wrote for twenty years I still shouldn’t have begun to treat these matters adequately. And yet when I somehow had got through it, I should have to go through it again, cutting all the way, until nothing unconnected with the fiction remained—which I did, so that now Paul Crouch’s inquiry takes up only eight chapters out of eighteen.
AmeriCymru: What is the Welsh background and context of the novel?
Peter: My connection with Wales dates from before I was born, and I owe it to my parents, if not to the Germans who bombed Somerset House when my parents were working there, so that they were evacuated to what was then Caernarvonshire, where they got married. That was still years before my birth, and meanwhile, after the war, they had moved back to London, but subsequently almost every summer they would return, taking me with them, to stay with the family they had been ‘billeted’ with.
Evidently the circumstances that had linked those Welsh and English lives were exceptional. And the following years were the last before the world was shrunk by cheap travel. But perhaps that western seaboard can still allure an English mind if it’s a young mind. For me what happened between my getting into a second-class railway-carriage as a ‘Passenger to Pendinas’ and getting out of it five hours later was a kind of magic, but not a mere conjuring-trick such as I might see at a children’s party—the evanishment or production or exchange of coloured silks or feather bouquets or doves or a giant snake. It was the exchange of one whole world for another—an exchange of bricks, soot, neon, petrol fumes, moving staircases, bronze horsemen, drinking-fountains and skysigns for sea, slate, gulls, granite, heather, anathoths, megaliths and cherryade.I have written about the real place in my review of Anne Forrest’s book My Whole World. In One Sprinkling Day it’s fictionalized as Pendinas, the small seaside place in Paul Crouch’s thoughts as the novel and the day begin, and again as they end, when it’s also recalled by his host, who had found a refuge there. In between, in the central chapters, Paul takes a walk which is at once a walk in a maze (the maze of thought about the problems he’s taken up with), a walk in the past (the region’s and his own), and of course an actual walk through a Welsh landscape.
Yn ystod taith gerdded sydd ar yr un pryd yn daith gerdded mewn tirlun, yn y gorffennol, ac yn y ddrysfa o feddwl am rai gwendidau [perplexities] traddodiadol, mae myfyrdodau'r protagonydd a hunan-bortreadau sgwrsio ei ffrindiau yn rhyngddynt â darnau am y rhanbarth hanes, hanes naturiol a nodweddion naturiol.
So besides supplying a lot of the material of the novel, the Welsh dimension unifies the whole.
AmeriCymru: You have said, of 'One Sprinkling Day', that ‘The author’s excuse for it is that the basic questions science and religion offer answers to aren’t asked only by scientists and theologians.’ Do you think that the majority of people either do or should think philosophically?
Peter: I think most of us ask these questions on occasion, though we may not think about them then for very long. Is this to think philosophically? I suppose they can be thought about in different ways. But aren’t there also different ideas of what philosophical thinking is? Traditionally philosophers were ‘seekers after truth’, weren’t they, trying to ‘interpret’ the world (if not to change it), to understand our relation to it, and to determine how we ought to behave towards each other. But at the time when Paul Crouch was beginning to ask the basic questions I referred to, most English philosophers, or the most influential ones, weren’t concerned to know whether this or that statement about the world or about human nature or anything else was true, but just what it meant. Paul Crouch in One Sprinkling Day hasn’t begun studying the subject formally yet, so I can only speak about my own experience here. And the philosopher I have in mind wasn’t a linguistic philosopher. Still he liked to define his terms and to use words precisely—“We have a job to do and our tools must be sharp.”
So for example he explained that in the statement ‘Man is essentially social’, the term ‘social’ was purely descriptive, comprising both ‘sociable’ and ‘anti-social’. Similarly, to say ‘Man is a rational animal’, or ‘the rational animal’, wasn’t to deny that he’s often (or even usually) irrational—here man was contrasted with the non-human animals, and they aren’t irrational but non-rational. Again, ‘moral’ in the phrase ‘moral philosophy’ hadn’t the usual meaning of ‘good’ or ‘right’ (when its opposite is ‘immoral’), but meant ‘belonging to the field of morals’ (its opposite being ‘non-moral’).
And this was all very precise, still those statements about ‘Man’ weren’t exact, since human beings, whom they were meant to define, aren’t all male. (An obvious fact which, in producing such high-sounding and exclusive phrases, philosophers and theologians, if they hadn’t lost sight of it, chose to ignore.) As for the commending words themselves and their opposites—‘good’/‘bad’, ‘worthy’/‘unworthy’, etc.,—we went on to consider what agathos meant in Homer, which was not what it meant for Plato or Aristotle, much less of course what ‘morally good’ meant for us, and we noted that kalos, another word for ‘good’ or ‘worthy’, also meant ‘beautiful’, just as aiskros meant both ‘unworthy’ and ‘ugly’, and in due course we learned what ‘good’ and the rest meant for Hume, Kant, Mill and Moore. And I’m sure that by this, Paul Crouch in my place would have wanted to know whether we should never discuss any situations in actual life, any moral choices of our own, whether we mightn’t try to solve some problems, or at least, by analysis, dissolve them,—whether we would ever do any philosophy. But I know that the answer if he had asked would have been that philosophy was just what our teacher had been doing in explicating these terms and referring them one to another. The philosopher’s job wasn’t to understand the world, and it wasn’t to preach or lay down the law, it was to clarify our thinking. We might in consequence think differently, we might then act differently, we might even change our lives, so philosophy might, indirectly, contribute to changing the world, still its true function wasn’t to solve problems but to put them before us.
In speaking of his own philosophy, our teacher was distinguishing it from the one then in fashion, the practical uselessness of which according to him its champions were actually proud of. They even disliked definitions, preferring merely to analyse moral terms as commonly used, however trivial the examples. Still, he might declare that rather than ‘pedantic concern with everyday language’, his field was the ‘questioning of accepted moral rules and values’, the ‘criticism of conventional moral codes’,—the criticisms his students heard were all of his colleagues. And not only of the English-speaking ones. He also criticized his fellow academics in West Germany, ‘well-off professors leading comfortable lives while holding forth about Care, Dread and Being-towards-death’. What would have surprised Paul Crouch, he even found fault with that other continental existentialist, the thinker called Mancy in One Sprinkling Day, for holding that we each have to re-invent our ethics in every action. Wasn’t he himself the inventor of a ‘Creative Ethics’, whose ‘open-mindedness’ permitted him to ‘re-think his principles in the light of his practical experience’? Paul would have thought the Frenchman’s ethics, as a godless sort of ‘situationism’ (or casuistry as it used to be called), must be congenial to him.Not that it was (or is?) unusual for a philosopher to disapprove of other philosophers. After all, the principal German existentialist had dissociated his philosophy from Mancy’s even though, or just because, Mancy’s owed so much to it. In fact he had dissociated it, as a philosophy of Being, from every philosophy of Existence, including that of the other great German existentialist of the day, who however regarded him as a metaphysician, while likewise rejecting the name of existentialist if Mancy was one. All these thinkers agreed, though, that the current Anglo-American philosophy—the main English-language philosophy of the century—was ‘irrelevant’, because it wasn’t lived (it hardly could be), so that its practitioners’ lives were ‘inauthentic’. To a mere student of the subject, the view of philosophy as a process of analysis might seem to link all the thinkers who shared it in a tradition going back at least to that ‘Art of Thinking’ which Pascal had contributed to (and Pascal had been just as particular about defining terms and concepts as our teacher). But if the analysts on their side agreed in charging the existentialists with conceptual confusion and false profundity, that didn’t mean they were generally at one. The great philosopher called Stern in One Sprinkling Day, who defended philosophical analysis himself, definitely shared their opinion of existentialism, both French and German—‘pure nonsense, based intellectually on errors of syntax and emotionally on exasperation’. And the ‘positivists’ among them had his sympathy. But as to the kind who thought that what should be analysed was language itself and that the wish to make sense of the world was an outdated folly, he was as scathing about them as about the existentialists—philosophy if they were right being ‘at best a slight help to lexicographers, at worst an idle tea-table amusement’.
I think then that Paul Crouch would have recognized, on our teacher’s part, an attitude reflected in almost every philosophy book he had read, where other ways of thinking were qualified as mere philosophizing, or not philosophy at all, or nonsense, whereas the author’s way of thinking was true philosophizing, what philosophy consisted in, what it really was—though naturally the author’s critics, and even followers in some cases, had completely failed to understand it. And I don’t think Paul Crouch would have been surprised (it was the same with Stern and Mancy) that a philosopher so severe on other philosophers should be even more severe on theologians. For our ethicist, all the assertions of ‘speculative metaphysics’ about immortal souls, a creator God, etc., were unfounded, because ‘immortal souls, like God, can’t be observed, and no observable differences would follow from their presence as compared with their absence’.
The last claim at least, which had a positivist ring, I think would have struck Paul as begging the question. And he would surely have noticed another thing. To this philosopher, explicating terms, not to mention re-thinking basic principles, was a valuable activity, just so was analysing concepts to Stern and the logical positivists, and scrutinizing ‘modern English usage’ to the linguistic philosophers. Yet they all despised the ‘re-thinking’ now being done by Anglican theologians, representing it as a way of making doctrines cease to be obviously false by rendering them meaningless.
Paul Crouch learns about this re-thinking from a retired clergyman, Dr Sprange, and he also learns what Dr Sprange thinks of philosophy, just as he learns from a Hindu holy man, Swami Satyanand, what the Swami thinks of it. Because we must certainly ‘hear the other side’, as St Augustine said. But your question relates to the Great Debate Paul Crouch was interested in, not directly to Paul Crouch himself—the debate I alluded to in the words you quote. So perhaps I may also recall, as representing another point of view in it, another person I had to do with myself. This will help me both to give a balanced answer and to illustrate further the feature of the debate that I think the most noteworthy—which is that every one of those different ways of philosophizing and transcending is reckoned by everybody who goes in for it to be the only one legitimate and worthwhile.
Although of another communion, the monk I now have in mind took the same view of philosophy, or of ‘philosophizing’, as Dr Sprange did, considering it likely to cause special difficulty for a person seeking faith—“Not because faith is incompatible with a genuine philosophy, indeed faith is the fulfilment of philosophy, but because the philosopher’s mind won’t find it easy to make that worshipful submission to the infinitely superior mind of God which faith involves.” I had gone to his monastery when living in the English Midlands and trying to get on with the inquiry that would eventually issue in this book. I was also then going through a period so barren that without seeing myself as a pilgrim, I couldn’t help wishing for a guide. Is it ever better to travel than to arrive? That must depend on the destination (Stevenson only says it’s better to travel hopefully), and in this department of inquiry you can’t be sure there is any destination. Pascal had his Lord say (this being the realm of paradox) ‘Comfort yourself, you would not seek me if you had not found me’, but Pascal was a believer. Anyhow, over the years I consulted a number of spiritual experts, among them that Trappist monk. Who told me plainly he doubted whether my inquiry would ever bring me much nearer the truth, though he ‘suspected the difficulty and even futility of it might be the means of my being drawn to approach the question of faith in a simpler and more direct way’.
At the Institute for the Harmonious Development of Man, the esoteric school set up near Fontainebleau in 1922, one of the wise sayings to be studied in the Study House was ‘Judge others by yourself and you will rarely be mistaken.’ (I heard another of those sayings once, at his flat in Kensington, from a man to whom the Christian doctrines were ‘empty formulas’, but who, having likewise swallowed a whole system of thought, didn’t lack ready-made answers of his own—only this one too, like the monk’s, wasn’t an answer to a question I had asked. I may add that to him as to all my experts, who saw themselves not as still seeking the truth but as having found it, the philosophizing of others was, in his master’s phrase, ‘pouring from the empty into the void.’) ‘Rarely mistaken’—the qualifying word was needed. If people who have made a lot of money judge poor people by themselves, they may well think them failures, though not everyone who is poor has tried to get rich or even wanted to. Because Dr Sprange valued faith, which he had, and which Paul Crouch had asked him about, he supposed Paul wanted faith. Not only that, because he himself asked things of God, he saw no reason why Paul shouldn’t ask faith or grace of Him. ‘Help thou my unbelief’ indeed, except that the man in the gospel said first (paradoxically enough), ‘Lord, I believe’. Paul didn’t want to believe by ignoring the facts against belief. And how can you settle any doubtful matter without looking into it? After listening to the abbot’s secretary, and much as I liked him, I felt as if I had been advised by Bishop Blougram. And had Paul actually asked a Being he didn’t believe in to help him believe in Him, he would have felt that his case gave Mancy’s term ‘bad faith’, which to him had meant nothing, a sense and an application.
Some people do say they wish they had faith, most of them I think fancying it gives comfort—as it may, though it may also give none even to the most devout (like Cowper, ‘snatch’d from all effectual aid’). But how in any case could a man of faith imagine inquiring about faith yet not desiring it if he hadn’t understood that for a person who doesn’t believe in God, God doesn’t exist? To Paul Crouch, who for his part couldn’t imagine a supreme being desiring his worshipful submission, to be told “Don’t close the door on God!” would certainly have seemed strange. For him to have called on God for help, to have acted as if he did believe in God, would have been a sham.
And yet his position wasn’t one of disbelief. In fact if an agnostic holds that whether God exists we neither know nor can know,—if the name means what Huxley seems to have meant by it in coining it, Paul wasn’t an agnostic. His position was one of unbelief. The old sceptical philosophers may have doubted whether real knowledge is possible, whether any facts can be certainly known, still to scepticize in the etymological sense is at least to ‘consider’ the facts, to ‘inquire’ into that possibility—to ‘seek’ after truth.
But not after ‘the truth‘, so such an inquiry can’t be futile as the monk had conceived it to be—not being an attempt to acquire faith—, and what he had said about it was no discouragement.
AmeriCymru: What's next for Peter Jordan? Any new works in the pipeline?
Peter: A book literary agents would think worth reading would be next for me, if I could think it worth writing.
AmeriCymru: Any final message for the readers and members of AmeriCymru?
Peter: I set One Sprinkling Day in Wales because to pay a debt to Wales was one of my aims in writing it. But I hope it will interest AmeriCymru readers for other reasons as well, and I’m much obliged to AmeriCymru for the opportunity to speak about it.
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Review
‘The past is myself’
A review of Anne Forrest’s My Whole World — Penmaenmawr
The history, geography, geology and natural beauty of Penmaenmawr make it a special place. The modern quarry-town spread up from the railway-station, under the mountain they got their name from, in the nineteenth century, but the mountain had been hewn long before that, and the distinctive igneous rock, since used in making concrete, had once been used to make axeheads. In the Iron Age the mountain was topped by fortifications, whose remains were described by antiquaries of the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries. The darkest period in British history was in Wales an age of saints, one of whom, the nearby islet’s eponymous hermit, was Penmaenmawr’s St Seiriol. To Dr Johnson the beetling cliff with the coast-road cut into it was a fearsome object; it was also a romantic object to David Cox, who painted it as such in the picture a tinted engraving of which hangs in the room where I am writing this review. The Victorian age, which saw the discovery of the source of the Nile, the greatest prize in exploration, also saw the discovery of Penmaenmawr as the most salubrious of watering-places. And in the last century a number of Londoners evacuated after the German bombs had begun falling found a refuge there.
Anyone attracted by this place will want to read an author who can call it ‘my whole world’, but this book has a value apart from the interest of the place. ‘The future is nothing, the past is myself, my own history…’ Evidently if we live only in the present we can neither know ourselves nor value truly our own lives. Every life being transient and unique—and so in itself precious even if mislived—, Lampedusa thought we should each leave some personal record, some account of things otherwise lost entirely. In quoting those words of Stevenson’s the writer of this book indicates at the outset what she is about. It is subtitled ‘an illustrated common-folk biography’ (it incorporates a photographic archive), and its comprehensiveness and also its particularity are points of difference from Alice Thomas Ellis’s memoir with the same setting, A Welsh Childhood .The (auto)biographer is a Roman Catholic, we learn (as the novelist was), still a recognition of impermanence as a mark of existence is not confined to Buddhists, and the Buddhist truth could hardly be illustrated more strikingly than it was by the ‘Head of the Great Rock’ itself—reduced, after weathering the ages, to setts, ballast and aggregate. The town too has lost what had seemed an essential feature, in losing the promenade that Elgar trod. And the other changes the author has seen there are not few. ‘La forme d’une ville /Change plus vite, hélas! que le cœur d’un mortel.’ You must feel deeply in this way to undertake the labour of putting your memories down in writing. But reading this narrative of life in those post-war years which are now history themselves, we can surely feel that even today the best medium for the preservation and transmission of the past is still a book—or at any rate a book such as this. -
Poems
Tenants of the grove
(i)
Your month. Earth basking here. No sound
from the harsh world. Nothing to tear
the warm yellow air but cawing, at times.
Stillness, except where a leaf hangs high
from a spider-thread. And nearer than the mossed floor,
though more distant too than a Baghdad pavement
all over blood, that russet heath
with three picnickers under a low sun.
Even your smile then spoke a bruised mind,
still I feel you'd found there, not joy, no—
October in your heart from a boy—, but something
like calm. As I might do now, only,
the thought of you, this livid leaf, jigs on.
(ii)
A footfall on the litter behind me? So light—
not the ogre Care's then, for all these thistle thoughts.
And why think, turning, to see you here? Well,
it was at this faded time of the season's fag-end,
in the calm before what must come, I found
pity rooting where fondness couldn't,
and might have asked what I'd ask you now.
A patter of mast? The day turns its page.
How to read it, light curdling, life so laconic…
Kanovium
Not time that parts us now?
What parted us then, even that,
had I understood then, finding
your home then couldn’t be mine?
In other summers we’d excursioned
far up that valley. From the coast
I’d followed the auxiliaries’ way
through the pass and down to those ramparts
on the adverse bank. This place
with its grass-grown halt, this crook
of the river, I hadn’t known.
And that to me was time past
and this was time lost.
Yes, but that afternoon,
pea-green before the thunder,
when you took me into the garden,
that evening, old-gold, we watched
tower over the estuary,—
if only as spectroscoped now
in memory do they reveal their nature,
if only now from the future
I was impatient for then
does that time appear as it was,
now I see too, not time.
Time, which takes since from till-then,
which takes you away, brings me after.
Not time, no, but what’s between
my now and your nowhen.
Well, and those Roman miles
between childhood and youth,
did they join or divide?
Llyn Anafon
Still in the tarn the candid star,
but always now in your leafless life
last things first, and roughshod time
louder and louder,—
till a thought pungent as tears,
or as though a bird plunged through heartspace,
suddenly you step over the threshold,
hear the blue ring of the evening, the trampling
noise subsides.
Evening in Llansantffraid
Down the lost years, yes, distance has lent it
a bloom it lacked for you then,
standing where the row of council-houses ends,
under the last lamp.
This sense, though, of your own time,
lived only once—this also lacking.
Because you were living that moment,
and living is duhkha?
Yet your senses stretched to catch again now
the sweet sharp air, the ferny gurgle,—
they caught it then, this moment to you then,
by the telephone-box, without meaning.
This moment of pure time?
If neither past nor present, if not in time,
then not of time. And not of being if,
being in time, we never are being
but always becoming. Only
it seems we can at moments, looking back in time,
get a glimpse into being and find it good.
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Peter Jordan