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C Reg Jones
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02/13/16 02:07:54AM
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Survivor Guilt


West Coast Eisteddfod Short Story Competition 2014




Survivor Guilt



The long grey lines of naked men and women shambled terrified towards the gas chambers. Dogs barked and whips cracked as the sneering guards cruelly mocked their unspeakable end…

He woke up with a cry, clutching his chest and sweating.

"A nightmare, another bloody nightmare."

Reaching for the glass of water on his bedside table, Heini Gutenberg shook out one of his heart pills and gulped it down. They were getting worse instead of better, he decided.

"My God, I should be over them by now."

He closed his eyes as the last cobwebs of the nightmare faded, leaving him mercifully with just a vague notion of the horror he’d dreamt. A long tremulous sigh escaped him as he lay back and searched the ceiling for answers. Would it always be like this, would he ever find peace?

If only he hadn’t seen that damned picture; if only he could forget. Three days earlier his life had been a different place.

Formerly a successful antique dealer and now a pensioner for over twenty years, the sedate passage of life had crunched suddenly to a stop as the cruelty of a past life had seized centre stage. This time he knew there was no escaping it, and that confrontation was no longer an option, it was the future.

 

It had started at the breakfast table. The paperboy had thrown their daily in the mud between the roses and the front page was caked in dirt.

"Damned kids, why can’t they just bring it to the door like they’re supposed to?"

"Perhaps he was late, dear? It is a school day after all."

Netty, his wife of over forty years, was always on the paperboy’s side. Maybe it was because she was eighty percent blind and couldn’t read the ruined text, or maybe she just liked the boy, he couldn’t decide.

"Give it to me and I’ll clean it up. Go eat your egg before it gets cold."

Handing her the muddy newspaper he strode over to the table and started to hammer at his boiled egg, venting his anger on its blameless shell.

He spooned out the first bit of yolk as she laid the paper in front of him, only to let it drop, gasping in shock.

"No, it cannot be!”

"What is it, what’s wrong?”

Eyes wide in alarm, he stared at the headline and then at the black and white picture below it.

In the photo, a good looking young man in his twenties grinned back cheerfully at the camera. With his cap set at a jaunty angle and the top two buttons of his tunic undone, he gave the impression of being a light hearted individual, a good guy. However, his affable film star smile, that outshone even the gleaming Death's Head cap badge, was sorely tested by the icy malice of his cold, staring eyes.

He turned to Netty and pulled her to him, "He’s back."

"Who, who is back, who do you mean?”

"The Beast of Vilnius." He barely whispered.

 

The next few days were a blur of obsession. He bought newspapers six at a time and scanned through them for any articles on the, "Beast of Vilnius". He gazed for minutes on end at the garish headlines splattered all over the tabloid stands.

"Met. certain the Beast of Vilnius is in London."

"Nazi murderer sought by Scotland Yard.”

After reading every item he could find on the news stand he would shuffle home to his worried wife, shaking his head in distress.

"Heini," Netty said after two days of quiet concern, "Why don’t you tell me about it?”

She reached over and took his hand, "You’ve never told me anything about the camps, and I can’t bear to live with this thing hanging over our heads like this. I need to know, after all these years I need to know.”

Shaking his head, he angrily cuffed at the unbidden tears and looked down in humiliation at his shoes. He hated to cry.

Netty was shocked, and almost relieved at the sight of her husband's tears.

"Perhaps this will do him good; everybody needs to cry sometime in their life, especially a man who's seen so much pain and terror." She mused.

They'd met at a Displaced Persons camp in the British Zone in the fall of '45 and had moved to London together not long after. None of their relations had survived the war and as the Good Lord had never seen fit to grace them with children, all they had in the world was each other. She felt she knew her husband backwards.

Netty reckoned that every survivor of the camps must have cried at sometime in their life; whether from the grief of losing everything and everyone, or the joy of new-found freedom. However, Heini had never faltered in his stoical attitude to life and now she wondered at the depths of the scars this picture had reopened in her husband's soul.

Ignoring his silence she pressed on, "I've never asked you because I thought that if you wanted to talk about it you would. But now it’s different. This is affecting the both of us and I need to understand; can’t you see that? This has gone on for too long and I need to know.”

"You'll never understand, how could you? You don't know what it was like then."

"Heini, please, this has gone on too long" she pleaded. "Please."

Finally, after what seemed like an hour to Netty but had only been a couple of minutes, he nodded, "I don’t know where to begin."

"Why not start at the beginning, who is the man in the photo and what did he do to you?”

"The man in the photo?" he sounded almost surprised. She gripped his hand in encouragement and then quickly released it. Turning to face her, he paused to weigh his words.

Netty felt the power of the moment. That somehow, after this, everything would be different between them; if he could just articulate his pain and make that final leap of trust. After the years of being woken by his nightmares, or scared by the strength of his silent anguish when too far into his cups, now finally she might have some answers.

"Tell me Heini, what did he do to you? It helps to talk about these things."

Heini nodded, resigned and beaten and yet still he said nothing.

Netty sighed deeply.

Then he spoke. "The man in the photo is a monster Netty, a monster in the guise of a man. A monster from a past life; just be thankful that you never met him." And with that he solemnly stood up and left his bewildered wife alone.

 

Four days after seeing the picture for the first time, a stranger rang the front door bell. Heini stayed in the living room, glued to an article about the Holocaust in Lithuania while Netty answered the door. He made out a muffled question and then distinctly heard her answer,

"Yes, he’s here. Oh certainly, please come in.”

The hairs on his neck spiked in alarm as he heard the clump of heavy shoes on the wooden floor. He lay the paper carefully down as the footsteps increased in volume.

With a familiar creak the door swung slowly open and a tall man in a trench coat walked in, followed by a uniformed policeman.

"Heinrich Gutenberg?" he asked, showing his warrant card.

Heini swallowed heavily, "Yes?”

"Also known as SS Oberscharführer Andreas Krause? Would you please accompany me to the station sir, we need to ask you a couple of questions.”

 




updated by @c-reg-jones: 02/13/16 02:08:09AM
C Reg Jones
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02/12/16 11:56:30PM
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The Bloody Ides of March


West Coast Eisteddfod Short Story Competition 2014


The Bloody Ides of March.

 

 

 Brutus first noticed the change in Caesar after his return from Gaul. 

 In the aftermath of every major victory, the Senate voted a Triumph for its successful generals, giving them and their legions the right to parade through the streets bearing arms.  The whole city would turn out to watch as the glorious ranks of polished soldiers marched to the Forum on the Capitoline hill.  At their head rode the general in charge, behind him, his prisoners of war to be sold into slavery or, depending on their rank, to be strangled in the Tullianum as an offering to Jupiter. 

 During Caesar's Triumph after the conquest of Gaul, Brutus noticed Caesar looking pale. A red tinge ghosted the white of his eyes and he appeared weak and listless.

"Are you well Caesar?"  He'd asked as they watched the last of the Gaulish chiefs being strangled.

"A minor ague, Brutus. It will pass" Caesar smiled tiredly, eyeing a trickle of blood dripping from the mouth of one of the dead chiefs.

"Leave me now, I must give praise to Jupiter for this great victory."

"Then I will give praise with you old friend." Brutus smiled. "Let the others feast your return while we give our thanks to the Gods."

Caesar turned and smiled wolfishly at his trusted companion, "No, you go on, I wish to be alone."

Confused, Brutus nodded and withdrew, leaving Caesar to commune with Jupiter alone.

 Later, at the feast set in his honour, Brutus noticed a refreshed and exuberant Caesar, all trace of his earlier frailty gone while he regaled his guests with stories of battles against the Aedui, Suebi and the Helvetii. His energy seemed boundless and Brutus, wondering at the miraculous change, feared the worst.  He left the party early and, on a hunch, made his way to the Tullianum, the prison built on the Capitoline hill.  Imprisonment was not normally used as a punishment in Rome so, as there was no permanent prison population, the building stood as quiet as the grave.

 He made his way to the underground chamber where the Gaulish chiefs had been executed. 

Once there, Brutus surveyed the bodies in front of him.  He had no need to study the ragged cadavers closely as his suspicions were immediately confirmed. The stiffening corpses were all, to a man, horribly mutilated by a gaping wound on the neck. Such injuries would normally have rendered the floor awash with blood, but the cell was dry.

Brutus called for the gaoler.

 Trembling, eyes bright in fear, the man could give no reason for the damage and stated that the last person to leave the cell had been Gaius Julius Caesar himself.

"Burn the bodies and tell no man of what you have seen here Gaoler, or my dogs will have your tongue for supper. If the Plebs find out about what you have seen, then it will mean the end of Caesar and maybe the end of Rome. If this gets out old man, I will come for you and you will suffer."

 Nodding respectfully, the gaoler swore silence and Brutus left him to take care of the bodies.

He knew what had happened to Caesar, he had witnessed the effects of the Vampire curse on a short visit to the Dacian legions a few years earlier. If this news were to be made known, then the delicate flower of peace that had now settled in Rome would be crushed in the blink of an eye. The Plebs were only too happy to rebel at the slightest provocation and the unbelievable news that their leader was now a vampire would certainly send them over the edge.

 However, Brutus acknowledged, Caesar's affliction could be contained and the fragile bloom of civil peace would be maintained if it were kept a secret.

 

 Seasons passed as Caesar crushed his enemies abroad and in the Senate until peace ruled; and with the security of harmony came a new era of openness by Caesar about his appetites.

 Brutus noticed the change the day he perceived a scar on the neck of one of Caesar’s household slaves.  Though he tried to hide his shock, he knew that Caesar had observed his reaction.

"Something wrong Brutus?" he asked knowingly, a smile twitching behind the mask of concern.  Now aware of the marks, Brutus couldn’t help but notice the same scarring on all of Caesar's slaves.  If Brutus had seen the marks, then who else? His edginess slowly morphed into terror as Caesar leant towards him to whisper,

"Fear not Brutus, I know what you have done for me in the past.  I need good men in the Senate, men who have proven their loyalty to Rome.  You have nothing to fear from the house of the Julii."

 Never the less, Brutus knew to be scared.  If someone else saw the marks on his slaves and then added two and two together, what then?  As a known favourite of Caesar, would he also be cast to the fires if Caesar’s true identity was uncovered?

 It was a chilly January night that pushed Brutus over the edge of intrigue and into the realm of political assassination. Caesar called a vote by the Senate on whether to accept Gaulish chiefs into their elite ranks. This, a not very subtle plan to bolster his number of allies within the Capitoline hill, had outraged the xenophobic Patrician class and a full-scale Senate rebellion seemed at hand.

 Gaius Cassius Longinus and Marcus Tullius Cicero ambushed Brutus on his way to the Forum. His thoughts on the proposed vote, Brutus was caught unawares as they took by the elbows in a pincer movement.

"Brutus, we must talk" Cassius said as they propelled him to a side chamber.

"What is it, if you want my vote against the Gauls you’ve got it? What is Caesar thinking?"

Cassius cut him off.  "No, this is far worse. Tell him Cicero."

 Brutus looked to the famed orator, once an ally of Pompey and a bitter enemy of Caesar, who seemed to struggle for the right words.

"How can I put it?" was all he could manage, so Cassius spoke for him.

"Caesar is a vampire. I know it and Cicero here does too. We’ve both seen him drinking the blood of his slaves. With my own eyes I saw him grab a girl and rip out her neck. It was awful, there was blood all over her, I’m sure he saw me."

 Brutus cut in.  "He saw you? What did he do?"

He paused to swallow and rubbed a trembling hand across his forehead.

"As I walked into the garden I saw him in the moonlight talking softly, almost singing to a girl.  She was bewitched, I could see her face over his shoulders as I came from behind them. Suddenly he grabbed her and pulled her to him.  I heard the crunch as he bit into her but she didn’t utter a sound.  I, it was, it was terrible Brutus.  He was like a jackal tearing at its prey."

 Cassius leant back against a column for support and Cicero moved to support his elbow.

"Suddenly he stopped. That awful sound of him drinking her blood stopped and he slowly turned his head in my direction." "What did you do?"  Brutus could imagine the scene and his own heart raced at the thought of what Cassius told him.

"I ran!  I just ran out. I could have sworn I heard him behind me all the way home but I never saw him.  He’s a demon, or a vampire Brutus.  We have to do something."

 Brutus turned to Cicero, who looked physically drained by what was being discussed.  "And you old friend?  What have you seen?"

As if being accused of some terrible crime, Cicero blanched and his trembling hand went to his throat.

The reaction meant more to Brutus than any tale the famous poet could even begin to think up and he placed a calming hand on his shoulder.

 Cicero’s eyes changed from fear to suspicion as he recognised the look of a fellow initiate to their secret.

"And you Brutus, what have you seen?"

Brutus let his hand drop resignedly from Cicero’s shoulder and sighed.

"I’ve seen enough to know you both," he looked up at them, "that you both speak the truth."

Cassius had been holding his breath and he visibly relaxed when Brutus said he believed.

Cicero, ever one to the point and yet always willing to take the back seat, spoke for the pair of them.

"And what does the mighty Brutus propose to do?"

 He’d known all along that this moment would come, yet he had feared its arrival as the Gladiator does his first fight.  The secret was out, he might be able to quash it but for how long?  He needed time to think, to stall and set his plans in motion.

 "Nothing."  They both gasped at his answer. 

"But Brutus!" Cassius spluttered.

"I propose to do nothing.  Rome under his guidance has become stronger than ever before.  We are prosperous and we are free.  I am not going to rock the boat with some wild accusation that the man, to whom we have all this to be grateful for, is a monster."

 He put a hand on both their shoulders to calm them.  "So what if he takes a slave every now and then, Cassius, I was there when you had one of your slaves strangled for attempting to escape.  Caesar will do us no harm, whereas we can only harm Rome if we attack Caesar."

 The moment stretched as they both worked over his stance.  Cicero looked to Cassius to act:

"I’ll have nothing to do with a beast of Hades, Brutus.  We must act and act now.  Besides,.  Casco, Cimber and Galba have all seen things too.  There will be others, we just need to ask around."

 Brutus groaned inwardly and lifted a hand to stop him, "Cassius, think about what you want to do, think about it!  You need proof before you accuse him, or he'll have you killed."

 Cicero, femininely manipulative and sly, saw right through Brutus.

"You’ve known about this for a long time, haven't you Brutus?  Why didn’t you do anything, why are we asking you for help when you knew all along?  Are you for the beast or against him, that’s all we need to know."

"I am for Rome and have always been for Rome.  Do not do anything rash that could endanger the status quo," he answered woodenly.

Cassius looked hard at Brutus, "That’s no answer and you know it.  Brutus, are you with us or not?"

 He closed his eyes, sighed and nodded acceptance, he knew he couldn’t avoid it.  This moment had been written in the stars a long time ago and it was only his stubborn belief that he could keep it a secret that had postponed it.

 "Cassius, seeing as you push the point, then yes, I am with you.  But I beg of you both, use stealth.  We must use cunning to spread the word before we strike."

 The course set, Brutus knew now that it could only lead to the death of Caesar.  "Together we can and will bring him down.  We must gather our allies in the Forum, there’s enough anger about the Gauls for us to make a move against Caesar.  But whatever you do, do not mention vampires."

 

 The gathering of allies turned out to be easier than Brutus could have imagined.  The xenophobia of the Roman Senate was eclipsed only by their dislike and envy of Caesar and the movement garnered momentum at breathtaking speed.  Caesar's plan to introduce the Gaulish chiefs into the Senate had distanced him from a large part of Rome’s governing elite and so it fell nicely in place with the rebel's plans..

 However, the catalyst that set the wheels of Caesar’s death in motion was the festival of the Lupercalia.

 Lupercalia, the festival involving young men of high birth running naked through the streets of Rome, wearing a wolf’s mask and carrying a strap made from the hide of a sacrificed goat.  The runners whipped young ladies lightly with the strap on the buttocks as they passed to promote fertility.  It celebrated no god in particular and its roots lay in pre-Roman times, when Romulus and Remus were supposed to have been suckled by the she-wolf Goddess Luperca.

 During the festivities, as the men passed the shaded dais on which Caesar sat, Marcus Antonius ran to Caesar and, in a pre-rehearsed move, pretended to place a crown on Caesar's head.

 It was meant to appear spontaneous, a joke and a large part of the crowd roared their approval at the overly theatrical way Antonius placed the crown over his head.  Maintaining the play, Caesar moved to swat the crown away.  Three times Antonius held the crown over Caesar, and the third time Caesar paused before pushing the crown away.

 The masses saw it as a prank by Caesar's closest ally, however the ruling elite was mortified.

 Caesar wanted to be King and a large part of the common people wanted it too.

The Senate's reaction played superbly into the hands of Brutus, Cassius and Cicero, who gathered their forces and made their plans.

 

 They now numbered sixty.  Sixty men ready to murder Caesar to protect the sanctity of the republic.  However, only six men knew the real reason behind the plan to assassinate Caesar was to rid Rome of a vampire dictator. The Ides of March was the date chosen for Caesar to die.

 The Forum was packed as Caesar entered.  He took his place on the Chair of State he’d had set up to act as a throne.  Nobody had yet called it as such, but to all intents and purposes, that was what it had come to be seen as.

 The session had not yet been called to order and the floor of the forum was filled with senators milling around and talking. It was Tillius Cimber who took the lead.  An avid republican and a bitter enemy of Caesar, he moved to stand in front of him and nervously bowed as if wanting to speak.  Caesar smiled as Cimber approached and leaned forward thinking he wanted to whisper something to him.

 Caesar's face turned to shock and then outrage as Cimber pulled him by his toga from the Chair of State.

"Unhand me now Cimber, what are you doing?" He roared, silencing the hall immediately.

 Cimber looked frantic, close to panic.  "Come on, what are you waiting for?"  He shouted to the others.  Casca stepped forward, his face resolute yet fearful. He paused briefly to look down at Caesar who glared at him before seeing the knife.

"Casca, what are you doing, what are you all doing? Help me here with this madman!" he shouted.

 Casca visibly flinched at the words and losing his nerve, he finally stabbed ineffectually at Caesar with the dagger.  Caesar cried out in anger and desperation, only now realising what was about to happen.

 Then like a pack of wolves they fell on him.  Brutus looked on fascinated and horrified as Caesar was butchered.  The frenzied mob stood back as Caesar broke free of the flashing blades and stumbled to fall at the pedestal of the statue to Pompey.

 Slowly, one by one, all eyes turned to Brutus, who alone had stood aloof to the slaughter.

Prompted by Cassius, he fumbled for the knife hidden in the folds of his toga.

 Brutus produced the blade and its glint caught Caesar’s eye.  He'd had it made especially for this day and Caesar's eyes widened in fear as he recognised the metal.  Silver, the only metal capable of destroying a vampire

He approached the statue where Caesar lay and winced at the anguish as he cried his final words,

"You too, child?"

 Brutus stood over him and Caesar's eyes rolled in his head as he turned to cover his face and wait for the coup de grace. The silence in the forum was crashing and Brutus was sure he could hear every one of the hearts beating in the bodies of the men who had taken part in the assassination.

 Bending down, he supported himself with one hand on Caesar's shoulder and stabbed down savagely at the large artery in the groin. Blood gushed like a fountain and Gaius Julius Caesar, Dictator in Perpetuity, went visibly limp under his robe.  Brutus then turned to face the crowd.

 Some looked away in shame, others looked ecstatic and proud.  They had murdered their leader but now nobody knew what to do. 

 Brutus had written a speech for this moment, but as he pulled it out of his toga a howl of anguish from outside stopped him dead. Markus Antonius, Caesar's greatest ally and supporter who had been lured outside before the assassination, had just learned of Caesar's demise and his grief shook them all.

 Suddenly, triggered by that wretched cry of misery, a collective madness gripped the men of the Senate.  As one they ran from the Forum, leaving Brutus to himself next to the body of his former friend.

He turned to Caesar's still form and knelt beside him, pulling his robes down to cover his nakedness, then he rubbed the blood away from the face of the corpse.  Twenty three stab wounds but only one had been fatal, and Brutus knew it had been his.

"Gaius, if only you’d have been more discreet all would have been well," he whispered as he studied the blood on his hands.  As it dripped, he slipped his fingers into his mouth to lick them clean.

"And besides, there’s only room for one vampire in the Senate."

 

 

 

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updated by @c-reg-jones: 02/12/16 11:56:55PM
C Reg Jones
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12/06/13 11:18:23AM
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Spain also has a problem with the Basque region wanting to break away.

C Reg Jones
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12/04/13 05:16:03PM
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Brings tears to my eyes, seriously.

It's well embarrassing.

C Reg Jones
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12/04/13 02:03:49PM
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I don't like any of them either.

The only acceptableone would be the one with the green lower half, the rest are naff!!

I don't think they'll change it though, there's no real reason to.

C Reg Jones
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12/02/13 02:50:10PM
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Quebec... ... ... DOH !!

C Reg Jones
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12/02/13 02:49:31PM
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Very interesting piece!

C Reg Jones
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12/02/13 02:44:13PM
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I think basically it all comes down to three things.

1.) Mindset. The Welsh people in general like the idea of being their own masters, but they're not doing too badly at the moment so I could imagine the general feeling being, "why rock the boat?", ESPECIALLY if it came out that we'd all be worse off without the English.

http://www.walesonline.co.uk/news/wales-news/wales-not-tax-base-follow-2028389

2.) Eonomic, (see above link).

3.) History of nationalism. The Scots have been very vocal in their derision of England for many years. Does Plaid Cymru hold the same sway in Welsh politics as the SNP? No, and it never will. Welsh rebellion has dwindled since Glyndwr to sporadic anger at economic laws, which had nothing to do with identity.

The Scots, on the other hand, have been active and vocal ever since the Jacobite rebellion in 1745. They secretly supported the French in the Hundred Year war, and though they've always been allies since the days of the Empire, their anger has simmered under the surface nicely, with bursts of nationalist fervour in the voting polls that go way beyond anything Plaid could muster. Anyway, that's how I see it.

http://www.tutor2u.net/blog/index.php/politics/comments/devolution-revision-differences-in-scotland-and-wales

Swansea Jack, Scotland would need to renegotiate its role in Europe, Salmond doesn't want to go it alone. http://www.scotsman.com/news/politics/top-stories/scottish-independence-salmond-confident-on-eu-1-3212443

C Reg Jones
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12/01/13 05:13:12PM
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Nice one

Though I give our Celtic cousins a bit more of a chance than that.

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