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10/12/17 10:38:25PM
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Illuminata by Nicolenya Caltman


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2017

Won’t you come on home?
Deep; within, the forest of my heart-
Where I have prepared a place for you…
A place; soft, warm, gentle, and kind-
A place; to hide you from the elements…
Even if it is; but a moment.
Here; in your home-
There is only love.
No judgement-
No need to perform…
Only love; for you-
Unconditional, pure…
For you, to take; feed yourself, and water-
I, your devoted; will remain in communion…
With you-
A constant light; flickering…
For you; to find your way home-
Where you will be received; recurrently.
Come, take; make your bed in me-
   and lay.


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12/01/16 03:30:59AM
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Conchobar by Cherie O'Connor


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2016


On the distant hillside I glimpse a silent shadow,

A shiver in the darkness beneath the misty moon glow.

Threadbare clothes and spirit clinging tight to fragile limbs;

The coursing blood within me growing icy cold and thin.

...

A child in my belly tries to feed from hollow bowl,

I pray to silent shadow from the depths of weary soul.

Collapsing on a snow bank for a place to rest my head,

knowing that my flesh is food as soon as I am dead.

...

Perhaps the silent shadow hears my broken shallow breath

as the stony, frigid pillow summons dreams of frozen death.

Yet in the misty morning, I feel warmth upon my back, 

I turn and face a shadow wolf, so bold and brave and black.

He greets me with compassion, no sign of an attack.

...

I hear my clan approaching and the wolf flees toward the hill,

narrowly escaping men who’d surely shoot to kill. 

The wolf reclaims his shadow self, silent, strong and still.  

...

That wolf and I were bonded by my child who was born

in the misty silent shadows on that magic winter morn. 

I named my baby Conchobhar, wolf lover I am told,

to honor that wolf shadow so brave and black and bold.

Now I call that shadow wolf who warms the winter’s cold,

as I fall into my final sleep for I am very old.


updated by @americymru: 11/24/19 06:16:51PM
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12/01/16 03:29:54AM
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Tea and Symphony by Cherie O'connor


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2016


I brewed a cup of strong black tea,

seemed to calm the fear in me.

This tea came forth from distant lands,

soothing nerves like grains of sand,

sifting through an hourglass,

marking time for fears to pass.

 

The tea flowed warm through icy veins

frozen now from distant pains, 

I felt the tea like warming rains,

thawing ice in frozen veins.

It washed away my fears and pain

and left behind a muted stain. 

 

This tea that came from distant lands,

left tiny leaves like specks of sand,

dissolving in a cup of tea

that brought me sweet serenity

like a soothing symphony.   

 

A cup of tea and symphony.

 


updated by @americymru: 12/01/16 03:34:02AM
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12/01/16 03:13:05AM
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Gratitude by Cherie O'connor


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Short Story Competition 2016

When I was growing up my life felt like a movie. Sometimes it was a horror movie, but most often it was a comedy. At least we chose to see it that way. Laughter is a survival technique and it’s very effective. One time during Thanksgiving my mother’s current costume of choice was a short black wig and small round tinted glasses. She was a bit overweight and this combination made her a dead ringer for Roy Orbison. My brother pointed that out to me.

“Holy crap,” I said. “She really does look like Roy freakin’ Orbison.” When he started singing “Pretty Woman” I nearly lost it.

“What are you doing in there?” my mother yelled from her favorite spot on the couch. She was probably worried I was abusing her one and only son.

“Nothing,” my brother yelled back sweetly. “Your daughter just said you look like….”

“Shut up!” I screamed punching him in the arm. He flashed an impish grin.

“Elizabeth Taylor,” he finished sticking his tongue out.

Grow up, I mouthed. My mother said nothing. Perhaps my brother protected me from mom’s wrath as an act of charity during this holiday intended to celebrate family. Who knows? But I was thankful. The last thing we needed that Thanksgiving was some huge battle. Maybe somehow we could find a slice of normalcy hidden in the cake of madness. It was worth a shot.

At some point, my mother extracted herself from the couch and made her way to the table. It would be my fifteenth Thanksgiving in New England. How delightful. If Norman Rockwell had painted this scene it would not have been called, “Freedom from Want” it would have been called “Freedom from Roy Orbison”.

There was Roy, aka my mother, at the head of the Thanksgiving table prattling on about how thankful she was for a bunch of shitheads like us. Well, a couple of shitheads like my dad and me. My brother was “her boy”. In fact, she would torture me more times than I can count playing that hideous Richard Harris Song “My Boy” on the hi-fi stereo. Unlike Roy Orbison, my mother was not going to make it as a professional singer. Her voice wasn’t bad, she just had destroyed it by singing various selections from her jukebox of hell over and over again until one’s ears would bleed.

What my mother lacked in tone, she made up for in volume. This only added to the PTSD I suffered every time I heard “My Boy”, or any Richard Harris tune for that matter. Macarthur Park should fall into the pits of hell and be instantly incinerated in my opinion. Who even knew Richard Harris sang. That guy should have stuck to something he was good at. Acting.

We had one of those console stereos that was popular in the day. It was this huge piece of furniture that consumed an entire wall of our living room. Dark wood and built in speakers with metal swirls that screamed 1970’s. There were a record player and an AM/FM radio built into this monstrosity. I think it even had an 8-track tape player. It was state of the art, but not exactly meant to be cranked up to the highest volume possible. If a particular song my mother chose to torture us with had a lot of bass our whole house would vibrate. Earthquake in New England.

Mom enjoyed changing the lyrics of songs in order to send a message. Not with “My Boy” though. That one she just sang exactly as it was, in this loud baritone voice. Kind of like a drag queen imitating Ethel Merman. “Because you’re all I have my boy, you are my life, my pride, my joy, blah, blah blah….” Those lyrics were like a shot to my heart every time she sang them. My brother was her life, her pride, her joy. What about me? Something she might scrape off the bottom of her shoe I would imagine.

Oh well, Ce la vie. Moms and daughters struggle. A story as old as time itself. I did hate my brother a lot back then. I’m sure some of it stemmed from that “My Boy” song. He probably hated that stupid song as much as I did. Maybe more.

I can’t recall what album was playing on the stereo that particular Thanksgiving day. If I had chosen the playlist, it would have been Simon and Garfunkel.

“Hello darkness my old friend, you’ve come to visit me again. Disguised as Roy Orbison at our table, like some whacked out Aesop’s fable.” I change song lyrics too, probably some genetic anomaly.

Typically at Thanksgiving, my Dad sat at the head of the table. It seemed to make sense since he cooked the entire meal. I always offered a toast to the chef. The man who got up at 4 a.m. after working his ass off all week at a factory, then planned the meal, shopped for the meal and prepared the meal with very little sleep. I thought he deserved a thank you. I didn’t offer a toast to my mother. Feel kind of bad about that now, but at the time I wasn’t very fond of her. It was kind of like my brother. I hated her, I hated him and I thought they hated me. They didn’t. I think I hated myself.

The stereo played 24/7 during those high times, but this Thanksgiving wasn’t officially a high time. Not yet! Mom wasn’t full blown crazy yet. She was just on the verge. We could all feel it. Her talking was speeding up quite a bit but had not fully blossomed into the incoherent endless stream of nonsense that spewed forth during full manic times. It was just the beginning. That’s why she was at the head of the table this year. Manic Mom didn’t yield her power to no man. My Dad was not the power hungry type so he dutifully sat at the other end of the table in Mom’s traditional seat. My brother and I sat on opposite sides. Just the four of us this year. No need to put in the extra leaves that expanded the table to accommodate as many as 12. We’d had that many come to Thanksgiving before. Not this year. Maybe people didn’t want to come to Crazy House. They were lucky. They had a choice.

I set the table. That was my job from the time I was little. My dad had asked once who wanted to set the table and I volunteered enthusiastically. After that, the job was mine. No matter how whacky things got in our house, we all tried to hang onto our own normalcy, in our own ways. Setting the table was my reality check. It reminded me of happier Thanksgivings. The ones that did mirror a Norman Rockwell painting. It seemed I wanted very little of life back then. Just happiness and peace. I still remembered those happy Thanksgivings and wanted to bring them back, but they were long gone. It was like those memories had been miniaturized and stuffed into one of those magic snow globes. Inside the glass container, my beautiful family was sitting at the Thanksgiving table. Yet as soon as you shook the globe we disappeared in a storm cloud of snow. We lived in that storm now.

Even still, I forced myself out of bed that Thanksgiving when I heard the pans clanging in the kitchen. My mother was asleep. That was a good thing. During the manic times, she barely slept. That meant no one slept. I looked in on her and sighed happily. She looked peaceful in sleep. When I walked into the kitchen rubbing my eyes, dad smiled. Somehow he was always smiling. I could see the exhaustion lining his face but he still had a twinkle in those hazel eyes. It killed me. I wished so much that we could go back to how things were when I was little. They weren’t perfect, but they weren’t crazy.

Getting up early to help Dad stuff the bird in spite of my vegetarianism was our special bonding time. It always had been. He would playfully slap my hand as I picked the raisins out of the stuffing and warn “No picking.” He’d laugh when I told him how gross the gizzards were. That’s what gives the stuffing flavor, he insisted. Even so, he lovingly created a batch of non-gizzard laden stuffing for his little girl, extra raisins and all. In that kitchen, Dad didn’t have to sing “My Girl”. I felt it. That’s how it was between me and Dad. His little Punkin’ would be there by his side helping him out whenever possible and he was so appreciative. He didn’t have to say the words thank you. I was there because I wanted to show him my gratitude.

Before Mom Orbison commandeered the head of the table that year we watched the Macy’s parade. Just me and mom. My brother took off for the high school football game and Dad looked in occasionally, but he didn’t have time to sit. He was too busy basting the turkey and peeling potatoes. Parades brought out this sweet little girl energy in my mom that I cherished. It gave us an opportunity to share the good things in life. The dancers, the marching bands, the huge balloons representing familiar fictional characters. My mom loved it all. By the time the Santa float came out signifying the end of the parade the anointed one returned from the Turkey Game. My brother shared the scores and some other football highlights. The boredom made me hungry and thirsty.

Thanksgiving meant wine. Usually Riunite with ice. Oh, that’s nice. My favorite flavor was Lambrusco. It tasted like grape juice with a nice little kick that made everything a little fuzzier. It seemed to soften the edges of life.

That year we probably had generic wine. My Dad was on a generic kick. It seemed everyone in our town was. White packages with stark black lettering were everywhere. Why spend money on all that ridiculous advertising? Generic wine, coffee, cigarettes, and cereal were all available at a large discount. We probably even had generic powdered milk. Thankfully there was no such thing as powdered generic wine or I’m sure we would have tried it.

Actually, I’m not a hundred percent sure we had wine that year. My mother preferred hard alcohol and had recently decided to experiment with making her own. She seemed to be experimenting with a lot of things those days. This was part of her ongoing dream of creating the next big thing to make her mark in the world and her million dollars. There always was some weird science experiment fermenting on the counters or in the bathtub. Fortunately, she wasn’t making bathtub gin. That year Mom was cultivating Galliano.

The liquor was being aged in several lead crystal containers. I don’t know where she got the recipe, but it was pretty much vodka and sugar with some sort of flavoring. It tasted yummy almost like Riunite, but with a major kick. Nothing like a good buzz to bring the family closer together. It worked. I think I may have even lifted a glass to thank my mother for her contribution.

Mom remarked on how beautiful the table looked. You always make the table so festive she said smiling. I’d worked extra hard on making the table perfect that year. My sister’s friend had taught me how to make napkin fans and I had perfected the art. There on everyone’s plate was a burgundy napkin fan. We looked like a normal family. Roy Orbison’s family.

In the end, it ended up being a really nice Thanksgiving. Right after my Dad gave his blessing which was “Over the lips and through the gums look out stomach here it comes,” my brother started humming Pretty Woman, very softly so only I could hear it. The Galiano had already started working on me and I tried hard to hold back my laughter. My brother saw me on the verge of cracking up and he hummed the song a little louder. Then louder still until I couldn’t hold the giggles in anymore. I started laughing so hard I almost peed my pants. My laugh was infectious. First, my Dad started laughing, then my mom and then my brother. Of course, my parents had no idea what we were laughing about, but the laughter must have felt good to everyone.

“What is so funny about that song?” My mother asked.

Then I felt bad. Really bad. We were making fun of my mother on Thanksgiving Day. Maybe I was a shithead just like she thought.

“Nothing,” I said wiping my eyes. Tears of laughter turned to tears of shame. “Joe just said something stupid about Roy Orbison that I thought was funny.”

“Oh I love Roy Orbison,” My mom said.

“Me too,” I said.

Then Mom gave a more religious blessing. I can’t remember what she said but I wish I could. I’m sure it was beautiful. If Norman Rockwell had been there to paint the scene I would have asked him to call it “Gratitude” because that’s how I felt. Grateful to be part of a family that taught me so much in spite of the challenges we faced. Grateful for one last Thanksgiving with my brother before he went off to college, and grateful for the man who planned, shopped for and prepared an amazing feast with very little sleep and a smile on his face. Oh, and of course deep gratitude for mom’s delicious homemade Galliano. She should have made a million dollars with that recipe, the stuff was magical. As for Roy Orbison, I’m grateful for him too. Every time I hear “Pretty Woman” on the radio I think of that Thanksgiving. Even still, I won’t be asking Santa for the Richard Harris Greatest Hits album. Macarthur Park in a snow globe is fine with me.


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11/30/16 07:57:24PM
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SOUTHERNDOWN by Hilary Wyn Williams


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2016


The cottage smells of wet dog,

Last year's sandwich spread and memories.

Your shoulder's force is requisite

To budge the sticking frames of doors and windows 

Swollen by the laden brume of seaside air.

A yellowed Sunday Times finds new employment now

To scrub the salt film from the patchwork panes

And give the ocean view again to us.

The rifts and valleys of the tera-cotta tile 

Are treacherous still, a testament to shifting time;

The narrow quilted bed groans disbelief at our return,

Too old to witness all the joy we'll find.

,,,

I rest my cheek against the thickness of the sill

And chip the blistered paintwork with my nail.

I'll do my writing here

And gaze long hours at the roiling sea,

The kettle whining testily against the breeze.

And you'll step up behind me,

Anchor me within your arm

And fit against me, jigsaw snug,

My missing puzzle piece.



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11/30/16 07:55:35PM
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MUMBLES by Hilary Wyn Williams


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2016


I race the rising sun to reach the bay,

To be just us at dawn out on the shore

And grab you, one shoe off and trousers rolled

To beat the earth's rotation at the margin's edge.

This is the hard impacted sand of Wales --

Not the bikini-dented dust of Malibu --

Where you can run, all helter-skelter,

Pell-mell, windmill-armed,

The way you used to as a kid,

No grace or style, just pitching forward,

Cotton frock blown out behind,

An ineffectual parachute.

The cockcrow's whetted breeze has edge

That cuts through Nana's Fairisle cardigan,

Its every hand-wrought stitch

A barbed-wire loop of love;

So we careen, loose cannons in a jumbled joy

Until we reach the end of Oxwich Bay

Where now the sky is live with crimson lake,

And tangerine and rose.

We pause there, heaving, panting, double-bent,

Two question-marks against the morning sky.

Our wicked, dancing eyes throw out the dare:

Oh yes, we're going to do it back again!


updated by @americymru: 11/30/16 07:58:30PM
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ABERGAVENNY by Hilary Wyn Williams


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2016



Tomorrow, from the train,

I'll gaze out through the grimy glass

Upon the verdant quilts of pasture,

Sanguine cattle with their lazy stance,

That lonesome sheepdog worrying a fence,

The beaten blossoms' drifting snow ...

And, jostled by the syncopated voice

Upbraiding wheel on rail,

I'll smile within, and swear an oath 

To one day bring you here, my favorite Cymruphile ....


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11/30/16 01:54:49AM
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Anilitas by Stephen Lloyd


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Poetry Competition 2016


When the looks

That they once gave you

Have long since

Disappeared.

When your face is showing

The distinct lines

Of the laughter

And the tears.

All you’ll have left

Are those stories to tell

On some lonely Saturday night.

An old woman

Sits in the backyard

Awaiting the coming

Of night.

Wise men whisper

Growing old is pain,

As they sit in front of their fire.

Your face shows

The distinct hope

Of avoiding

That funeral pyre.

All you’ll have left

Are those stories to tell

On some lonely Saturday night.

That old woman is you

In the backyard,

Awaiting the coming of night.


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11/30/16 01:45:58AM
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Mephistopheles' Menagerie by Tasha Teets


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Short Story Competition 2016


     "Come on Pa!" I shouted while running back down the dirt path, "we're going to be late."

      I grabbed his hand with both of mine, trying to speed up his normal rambling walk.  His fingers were rough from callouses and dirty with soil engraved into his skin like fingerprints despite washing his hands twice this morning.  Undeterred by me digging my heels into the ground, he continued to walk at a snail’s pace.  Resigned, I crossed my arms and slowed down to walk beside him.

     "What's the rush for kid?  The show isn't going anywhere," he smiled down at me from his impressive height of over six feet.  The crisp white shirt and pants Ma had forced his to wear never looked right on Pa.  I guess I'm just used to seeing him in the corn field wearing sun-bleached overalls with sweat stained undershirts.  He'd live and die in those clothes if Ma didn't make him change for church.

     "If we're late we'll miss all the good stuff and who knows if the circus will ever come back here."

     "We've got plenty of time. I promise we won't miss a thing."

     It was the first time anything resembling a circus had come to a small town like Burton, Nebraska.  We get the occasional merchants trading their wares and the rare family settling down to try their hand at farming, but never a circus.  I wasn't going to miss a second if I could help it.

     The dirt path led us to a clearing that used to be filled with corn until Farmer Walter caught his wife Irene cheating and burned the whole thing down.  Now he lives alone is a small shack, renting the land out to travelers and spending all his money on booze.  At least, that's what I heard my parents saying when they thought I had gone to bed.

     The circus had come into town by train late last night and by dawn the whole field had been transformed.  We passed game booths with prizes hanging from the ceiling and children begging for just one more chance.  Food stalls with flashing signs had my mouth watering for just a taste of what created the delicious smells.  I tore my gaze away from the temptation and my eyes fell upon the tent.

     Three times as tall as our home, the red and white stripped tent stood in the rear of the clearing, taking up more than half of the available space.  Posters advertising the various attractions hung along the sides and black flags waved in the breeze from the very top of the tent.

     Dazed, I followed Pa to the tent entrance.  Folds of the tent had been pulled back, revealing a dark tunnel with only a couple dull red lights to guide the way.  A strange melody flowed from within, played slowly with an instrument I couldn't name.  Stepping closer, I was about to ask Pa if he knew when a bright red ticket was appeared in front of my face.

     "Would you like to hold your own?" the man from behind the podium asked.  He was a short, portly man and if it wasn't for the stool he was standing on, he'd never be able to see over the stand.  His scraggly hair was so slicked down with grease, I couldn't tell what color it was supposed to be other than black.

     "Yes, please."  I took the ticket, trying not to stare at his hands.  The nails looked stained with black ink, the skin above it red and peeling, as if he'd been burned.

     "Enjoy the show."  He held my gaze as a smile slowly crawled across his face.  Crooked yellow teeth caught the glare from the sun and for just a moment, they seemed to sharpen, tips turning needle sharp.  I blinked and the image vanished.  His teeth once again as blunt as mine.

     "Come along Johnny," Pa called, five steps into the tunnel, "I thought you didn't want to be late."

     I hurried to Pa's side, unnerved by that strange man, but unwilling to say anything out loud.  Ma always said I had an overactive imagination.

     As we walked through the tunnel smoke started to gather around our ankles, slowly rising with each step we took.  The light appeared to set the smoke ablaze, like we were walking through an ocean of fire.  The tunnel turned sharply to the left before it ended; leaving us on the walkway leading to the bleachers.

     We grabbed the first available seats we could find, which luckily were directly across from where I assumed was the entrance for the acts.  The tent seemed massive; it looked far larger than its appearance outside.  Our small town would never come close to filling all the space, but looking around I think we made a good effort.

     The lights started to dim and I almost wriggled out of my seat in anticipation.  A single red spotlight illuminated center stage and with an explosion of fireworks that appeared to come from the ground; the ringmaster emerged.

     His tanned skin was covered by leather pants tucked into spit shined boots and a bright red tail coat fastened with gold buttons from the neck to the pant line where it then flared out to just past his knees; the edges tattered and singed.  Probably from getting to close to those fireworks he set off.

     "Ladies and gentlemen," he said, voice echoing through the tent despite his low tone, "Welcome to Morning Star Circus!"  

     "My name is Luce and I'll be your ringmaster for the magical evening."  He bowed, white gloved hands sweeping his black top hat from its perch atop equally dark curls.

     Standing upright amid the applause from the audience, he replaced his hat turned to wave to all sides of the tent.  The bleachers took up three quarters of the tent with the remaining area reserved for the acts. 

     "We have a mesmerizing evening planned for you tonight.  From our high flying trapeze artists to our work renowned contortionists; I guarantee this will be a night you'll never forget."  He spun toward the empty space and a white spotlight revealed two people standing around something very big covered by a brown sheet.

     "Our first act is Quill, knife thrower extraordinaire and his twin Quillina."  The red light cut off and Luce vanished with it.  I turned to focus on the knife throwers and tried to think of what could possibly be under that sheet.  

     Quill was dressed in a black pants and vest combo with a white long sleeve shirt under it; the sleeves pushed up toward his elbows.  His vest glinted silver in the light whenever he moved.  I squinted, trying to see more clearly, but my seat was too far away to make out what was attached to the vest.

     Following the same color scheme, Quillina's costume looked like a white sparkling bathing suite with shorts attached.  Black lace ran in stripes across the bodice to match the lace gloves on her hands.  Both had short whiskey brown hair styled into loose spikes.

     "Thank you all for coming out," Quill spoke first, walking toward the sheet, "tonight my assistant and I will be unveiling our new trick for the first time.

     "We give you," Quillina grabbed two handfuls of the fabric and with one sharp tug it pooled to the ground.

     "The Wheel of Death!" Quill finished, taking hold of the revealed wheel and giving it a quick spin.  The black and white swirling pattern was disorienting while in motion.  My eyes started to water from staring so I focused on the performers instead.

     "Quillina, if you could step onto the wheel please," Quill requested.  Stepping up to the wheel, face toward the audience; she placed her hands and feet in the four holders along the edge of the wheel.

     "I will now throw these knives toward the target to create an outline around Quillina.  Any wrong move, from either of us, could prove deadly."  His hand grasped the end of one of the silver spots on his vest and with a flick of the wrist it detached from whatever was holding it in place.  

     In Quill's hand was the strangest knife I had ever seen.  Sharp a both ends and about a ruler's length long.  He flipped the blade in the air before moving to stand about 25 feet away from the wheel.

     "Ready Miss Quillina?"  Seeing her nod, Quill pulled out another knife with his free hand and the Wheel started to spin.  He threw each knife one at a time, each sinking into the wood right beside her leg.  As the wheel gained momentum and the color started to blur, I could no longer tell exactly where Quillina was.  

     Without hesitation, Quill began to throw every knife he had on him at a rapid pace.  He never took a second to aim; only the steady thunk of metal hitting wood and the absence of screams let us know that he wasn't hitting flesh with each throw.

     Five minutes of this passed before Quill was down to his last knife.  He turned so his back was to the wheel and then lobbed it over his shoulder.  I squeezed my eyes shut, certain that the poor women was going to be injured this time for sure.  In the silence created by what felt like the entire audience holding their breath; one last thunk rang through the tent.

     "Open your eyes John," Pa whispered, "you don't want to miss the ending."

     Taking a quick peek, I saw that the wheel had slowed enough to show that Miss Quillina was alright.  There was no blood in sight and once the wheel stopped completely we couldn't even see a scratch on her.  Knives outlined her entire body, from her head to her white boots.  Slowly, Quillina detached herself from the wheel and her brother swept her up into a tight hug.

     "Thank you all, you've been a lovely audience," she said raising their clasped hands into the air.

     "We hope to see again for another round of the Wheel of Death," Quill finished and together they bowed to all sides of the audience.  Their lights went out and center stage lit up to show Ringmaster Luce twirling a staff with one hand.

     "That was certainly exciting, but there's more where that came from.  Our next act is a troop of contortionists so limber they've been accused of not having any bones.  Let's hear it for Viper, Coral, Cleo and Aspen!"  Luce threw the staff upwards, the lights fading out before we could see if he managed to catch it.

     Green lights slowly faded in to reveal the four contortionists.  All four were tall, thin women wearing similar once piece costumes that covered their entire bodies except for their hands, feet and faces.  The clothes clung to their skin and despite being different colors the patterns looked just like the scales the snakes the crawl through the cornfields.

     The first women's costume was a dark blue, fading into a florescent orange on her head and feet.  She stepped forward, tumbling down to the floor where she bent her legs over her head until her toes touched the ground, bracing her forearms flat to the ground for balance.  Her body creating a loose backwards c-shape.

     The next two performers cartwheeled to opposite sides of the first; one bearing a black and green checkered outfit.  The other's back was completely black with thin yellow stripes across it and simply yellow on the front.  In sync, both performers ended their cartwheels in a handstand facing toward the center.  Bending at the hips, while keeping their legs straight and toes pointed, they lowered their legs until becoming parallel with the floor.

     The final contortionist, decked out in fiery patches of red, orange and yellow took a running start and jumped toward the first performer.  Twisting in mid-air, she landed on her hands, facing the audience as her legs dropped open into a perfect split.

     "Did you see that Pa?" I asked, clapping along with the rest of the crowd.  Pulling my eyes away from where the contortionists were now springing into a new human puzzle, I could see that Pa had the same gob-smacked look on his face that he had when Mamma announced she was pregnant again.  

     I turned back to the show and muffled my giggles behind my hand.  Mamma always said it wasn't polite to laugh at people, even when they are making funny faces.

     For the next half hour, we all watched as the contortionists bent, twisted and stretched their bodies in the most astounding ways.  Just as Ringmaster Luce had said, they moved in ways that I really couldn't see possible for a person with bones.  Pa and I clapped and whistled for every pose and after simultaneous somersaults, the women bowed as the green lights cut off.

     "I don't know how they do it folks, but I know we're all thankful for their dedication.  Up next we have the graceful ladies of the skies.  They will be walking the tightrope and performing masterful aerial stunts.  Please direct your attention upwards for Odette," Luce swept a hand to the left, "and Hera," he said as he pointed to the right this time.

     Pale blue light illuminated the top half of the tent while Luce's red one shut off.  A taunt rope traveled between the main support beams; a platform on each end with enough room for two people to stand.  Above the platforms hung two trapeze swings held in place with string.  The women standing on the left platform must be Odette and Hera would be the one on the right.

     Hera, perched atop the tight rope, was wearing a leotard.  It was royal blue from the long sleeves until it turned into neon green at the waist and below.  A bustle comprised of dark and light green feathers trailed to just above her feet.  Spots of blues and blacks made it seem like there were eyes staring right back at the crown.

     Waving to the crowd, Hera walked back to the empty platform; her balance on the rope was perfect as she never faltered on her path.  She stepping up onto the platform and unhooked the string around the trapeze, holding it back from swing forward.  She flashed a thumbs up to Odette who smiled in return and started to untie her own swing.

     Odette's costume was pure white; a tight strapless shirt leading to a flared skirt edged with wispy feathers.  Two ivory wing combs held her blonde hair in an intricate bun while ribbons crisscrossed around her arms and legs.  She held her swing with two hands and stepped to the edge of the platform.

     "Wait, wait," I whispered to Pa, "they're going to use a net right?  They could get hurt."

     "It's okay John, they're professionals."  He gave my hand an encouraging squeeze and we looked back to the performers.

     Unafraid by the lack of net, Odette began her routine by simply stepping off the platform.  Gracefully, she glided through the air; arms fully extended and a smile on her lips.  Hera released her swing and it flew rider less toward the middle of the tent.  Right before Odette came to the end of her swing she let go, flipping twice in the air to catch the bar Hera had just released.

     "Did you see that Pa?" I couldn't resist standing and jumping in place, "oh my gosh, that was amazing!"

     Up above, Odette now hanging from her knees, was making her way back to Hera's platform.  Hera jumped, taking a firm grip on Odette's wrists and together they flew back across the tent.  Hera released at the top of the swing and used her momentum to soar through the open air.  The still swinging, rider less bar was caught in Hera's nimble hands.

     As each trapeze continued to sway, both performers climbed to stand atop the bars.  They posed, waving to the cheering crowd and then proceed to jump straight down.

     "No!" I screamed in horror, stunned as they started to fall.  Startled, Pa had even started to move down the stairs, as if he could help them before they fell to their deaths.

     Instead of continuing to fall, Odette and Hera landed on the tight rope.  They immediately rolled across the wire and stood up; perfectly balanced with one foot on the wire and the other straight out behind them.  Pa and I looked at each other with disbelief in our eyes and began hollering out praise.

     The aerial acrobats proceeded to cartwheel and flip across the wire, sometimes even jumping over the other to complete a trick.  They flew through the air as if gravity didn't exist, as if with a single leap they could take flight and leave everyone else behind.

     The act ended with the performers flipping off the tight rope to land of both of the platforms.  The lights dimmed on their smiling faces and the audiences’ enthusiastic applause.  Pale yellow lights lit up the entire tent instead of the spotlights we had seen so far.  I looked back toward the ground, anxious to see what the next act would be.

     While our attention had been captured up high, two cannons half the size of our barn had been set up below.  Resting on opposite sides of the tent, both were black and speckled with red and white paint.  The wicks for each cannon were long, extending halfway to the ground.

     "Thank you for the beautiful performance ladies.  I know I loved it and judging by the applause so did the audience.  As you can see we have one final performance for you before the day is done," Ringmaster Luce, standing in the center between the cannon, waved to where two new performers were emerging, "I give you Titan and Rose.  The human cannonballs!"

     The man and women were both on the short side, wearing fully body suits with a helmet under their arms.  The black suits had white spots decorating their arms and red stops on their legs; matching the cannons expertly.  They shared a brief kiss before approaching the separate cannons and climbing the ladders to the openings.

     "While the performers are getting into position," Luce narrated, the performers fitting their helmets into place, "I'll show you have we are going to light up these cannons."

     He snapped his fingers on both hands and flames erupted to hover an inch above his fingertips.  Murmurs of awe swept through the crowd as the Ringmaster started to weave his hands through the air, the fire following like an obedient dog.

     Luce peeked over his shoulder to see the performers in position and spun around with his hands held out to the cannons.  The fire circled him once before igniting the end of the wicks.  Eagerly, the flames devoured the flammable material inch by inch.

     "And now, the moment you've all been waiting for," he said, the leftover flames dying out from around him, "in three, two, one...."  The wick ran out and the cannons fired, the loud blasts shaking the stands.

     The performers sped through the air, limbs held tight to their bodies and heads point straight forward.  They were quickly approaching the center of the tent.  Right before they struck each other head on, Titan and Rose turned their bodies sideways, just barely avoiding a collision.

     Opening their arms and legs revealed black webbing with red spots stretching across the space between their limbs.  The thin material allowed the performers to slowly glide through the air, spiraling around the tent and circling closer to center stage with each pass.

     "Let's hear it one more time for Rose and Titan as they come in for their landing," Luce called out.  He took a couple steps back to make sure there was enough room for two people to land.

     "Wasn't that incredible Pa?" I asked, stepping onto my seat to get a better view of where the performers had just landed.  They pulled off their helmets and waved back to the crowd.

     "Never seen anything like it," he said, clapping his hands with a smile on his stubble covered face, "now get down off there before you fall and crack your head."

     Laughing, I did as he asked and went back to watching the end of the show.  The human cannonballs had started their journey back to the tents exit.  The yellow light darkened to red as it once again focused on Ringmaster Luce.

     "I hope you were all thrilled and amazed by our gifted performances and I thank you for coming out to support," he bowed at the waist and lifted his head to stare at the audience from under his hats brim, "Morning Star Circus."

     His shadowed eyes seem to glow red in the lighting before the tent darkened once more.  The lights marking the exit tunnel was the only thing keeping everyone from tripping over themselves as the crowd slowly filtered out.

     "Show's over son, let's go home," Pa said making his way down the steps.  He had waited until we were the last one's there to avoid the crowded passage.  I followed behind him, smoke once again curling around our ankles with that same soft music playing.

     I turned back for one last look, squinting to see through the dark.  All I could make out was the Ringmaster's glowing eyes, burning red like the flames he so easily commanded.

     "Johnathan!" Pa's shout echoed through the tunnel, startling me into looking away from that fiery gaze.

     "Coming," I yelled and when I looked back, the eyes were gone.  A cold chill ran down my spine.  I rushed through the tunnel; overcome with the sudden feeling that if I didn't leave now, I never would.

     I burst through the exit to see that Pa was the only person left standing near the entrance.  Even the ticket seller and his podium were nowhere in sight.  Behind me, the strange music abruptly stopped playing and the stripped tent fabric dropped; sealing the entrance.

     As we walked through the clearing, I realized the whole place was deserted.  The townsfolk were missing and the people who were supposed to be manning the games had disappeared.

     "Where is everybody?" I asked.

     "You must've been in that tent a long time.  What held you up?" Pa took my hand as we stepped onto the dirt path heading home, "I was getting ready to send a search party for you."

     "I don't know," I looked away from concerned eyes, "just got distracted, I guess."

     "Well, why don't you think about what your favorite act was so you can tell Mama all about it when we get home."

     "That's a great idea.  I'm going to tell her everything!"  I put the weird Ringmaster out of my mind and focused on all the things I've seen today.  Mamma will want every detail; this time I can tell her a story before bed.

     Later that night, Mamma sent me into town to pick up some flour to finish dinner with after Pa accidentally spilled our last cupful.  The sun was barely hanging in the sky as I left the general store.  I knew if I hurried I could make it home before dark.  

     I was halfway home, about to cross the only train tracks in town when I heard a piercing whistle.  A train was approaching, but the warning bells and stop lights remained silent and dark.  Taking a couple of steps back I decided to wait for it to pass; just to be safe.  Mamma would rather me be late than dead due to foolishness.

     The first couple of cars to pass by were dull brown, steel storage containers led by a black engine spewing thick smoke into the air.  Time seemed to slow as I caught sight of a boxcar with Morning Star Circus painted with fancy red letters across it.  The rest of the train held simple flatcars with different sized cages strapped to them.

     Bristling porcupines laid in a bed of grass next to a tank filled with color colorful snakes lounging on branches and stones.  White swans floated on the water side of an unusual tank filled with half water and half grass.  The next set of cages had peacocks strutting across the floor, fanning out their feathers in a colorful display.  The last tank was populated with hundreds of butterflies of every size and color fluttering through the available space.

     I could feel my jaw drop in surprise.  If Mamma were hear she would be telling me to close my mouth before a bug flies in, but I couldn't help it.  Never have I seen most of these beautiful animals.  The closest I've ever come to them is the picture books at school.  After a few more normal storage containers came the caboose, just as darkly colored as the engine was.  

     Leaning out the only window I could see was Ringmaster Luce, still dressed in the same costume.  Those red eyes locked onto mine and he smiled at me as his gloved hand swept the top hat off his head.  The action revealed long red horns, sharpened to terrible points and just short enough to fit under his hat.

     "No," the gasped word was barely audible as my breath stuttered in my chest.

     Luce's smile widened even further, nearly splitting his face in half as he placed the hat back on his head.  My eyes followed him as the train passed by.  The last thing I was before the final rays of the sun blinded me was Luce holding his pointer finger up to pursed lips in a familiar shushing gesture.  

     Rubbing the black spots from my eyes only took a moment, but when I looked up the tracks were empty and there was no train for miles.  I rubbed my eyes once more just to make sure what I was seeing was real.  There still wasn't a train chugging along in the distance, not even smoke in the sky.  Only the steel tracks and a boy carrying a bag of flour.

     It must have been my imagination, brought on by hunger and too much excitement today.  I'll forget the whole thing ever happened.  I'll forget the voice I heard.  The voice and the words whispered in my ears right before the train disappeared.  Words that will haunt my dreams, keep me up at night and have me second guessing my every decision.

     "I'll be seeing you soon, Johnny-boy." 




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AmeriCymru
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The Perils of Fabrication by Tasha Teets


West Coast Eisteddfod Online Short Story Competition 2016


Today will mark the 27th time I've seen Dr. Steel since I moved out of the city and into the peaceful countryside.  Two months have gone by and I still can't stand the silence.  Or the bugs.  Mosquitoes, spiders and every creepy crawly imaginable has decided to lay siege to my new home.  I've already ran through all the bleach I had stockpiled. 

Rats scurry across my spotless floors leaving behind tiny muddy footprints.  The mosquitoes are trying to drain me dry, but it's the spiders I hate the most.  They lay eggs in my ears while I sleep.  One day I'm going to be eating cereal and a whole army of them are going to start pouring out of my head.

"Ms. Smith, Dr. Steel is ready to see you now."  Gwen called from behind the receptionist's desk.  Her long red hair was pulled up into a fancy bun that I never could seem to replicate with my own dull brown hair.  I picked up the duffel bag advertising Barry's Gym and moved toward the office door.

"I'll give you a call later today Gwen.  We can go over my duties as your maid of honor then."

"B-but, I," she said, rising from her chair as I was moving through the door.

"Oh I'm so sorry, can't talk now.  I know you're about to take your lunch break so I'll see you in about two hours."  I swiftly closed the door before she could say anything else.  I knew once Gwen got going I'd miss half of my appointment.

Dr. Steel's office was located on the second floor of a recently closed pizza shop.  The building was old and you had to use the stairs in the back of the building to even reach the office, but he was the cheapest therapist in town.  The brown carpet, which I fear was supposed to be white, is surrounded by faded grey walls.  I wish he would let me clean up in here.  He probably leaves it like this on purpose, just to watch me twitch every time I come through the door.

A plain brown desk sat in the corner, mostly unused by Dr. Steel during sessions.  He preferred to sit face to face with patients in the two padded chairs set up in the center of the room.  The leather looked new from a distance, but they can't fool me.  Whoever decorated in here probably got them in a yard sale.  Germs and bacteria just lying in wait for their next unsuspecting victim.

I place my bag beside the chair and gingerly sit down.  I'll have to wash these clothes in the sink I installed behind the garage when I get home.  No sense in infecting the whole house.  Dr. Steel was already bent over his clipboard and scribbling away.  From this angle I could see that the bald spot in the center of his head had grown another inch.

"Good afternoon Ms. Smith.  What seems to be the emergency?"  He finally lifted his head to face me.  Dull blue eyes stared out from behind wire framed glasses.  

"Emergency?  Who said anything about an emergency?"

"My receptionist said you called in this morning and demanded an emergency session.  She said you were crying over the phone." 

"Oh doctor, you know Gwen.  She must have been joking around."  I laughed at the very idea; me crying over the phone like all the other hysterical patients he has to deal with.  

"Right.  Gwen you say," he paused to write some more on his paper, "What would you like to talk about today?"

"Before we get into that, what are you wearing?"

He looked down at his clothes before looking back at me with confusion on his face.  I don't know what his problem is.  At every appointment I've had with Dr. Steel he has always worn a suit.  Granted, he stuck out like a sore thumb in this tiny office, but at least he looked professional.

Now he's wearing a red t-shirt with some sports logo on it and cargo shorts.  There are traces of dirt on his knees from who-knows-where and his grey streaked hair doesn't have an ounce of gel in it.  The stands are sticking up in every direction.  He looks like a startled porcupine and I just can't take him seriously.

"Mrs. Smith, today is Sunday and Sunday's are usually my day off.  I was at home relaxing when I got the emergency-"

"I did not say it was an emergency."  I interrupted him before he could blame his poor state of dress on me.  

"Nevertheless, today is my day off, but I came in to speak with you.  Besides how I am dressed, is there something you want to talk about?"  He steepled his fingers and gave me his patented listening face.  I wanted to yell at him to stop pretending.  If he didn't want me as a client he should just so say.  He's probably just in it for my money.

"The reason I requested a meeting today is because the employees at the Stop and Shop on Main Street are trying to poison me."  I crossed my legs, foot idly tapping in the air and waited for his strategy on how to fix this reoccurring problem.

"The grocery store employees are trying to poison you?  What made you come to this conclusion?"  

Shocked, I could feel my mouth gape open for a moment before I quickly closed it again.  With my luck a fly would pass by and make a nest behind my tongue.  Dr. Steel didn't even look surprised.  If anything he looks bored, like he's about to let a yawn loose any minute. 

"You don't believe me, do you Dr. Steel?"  My eyes darted to the corners of the room.  Surely I'm on a hidden camera show.  Why else would he take a threat against my life so flippantly?  Unfortunately, the corners only held traces of cobwebs in them.  Damn spiders.

"It's not that I don't believe you Hannah, but claiming that someone is trying to kill you is a substantial claim.  It's not to be taken lightly and I just want to get all the facts straight."  He leaned forward in his seat and took a few quick notes.  What I wouldn't give to see what he writes about me in that thing.

"Do you think I'm crazy?"

"No Mrs. Smith.  You are not what we classify as crazy."

"Well that's a relief."  I laugh a little at the thought.  I think he's lying to me.  "I mean, no one want's to be crazy.  Right?"  I chewed on the skin beside my fingernail while he continued to write on that infernal clipboard.

"In this business we don't use those labels.  There are simply some people who have a disease of the mind.  It's not contagious, nor is it the fault of the person it affects."  

A disease would make sense.  Infecting people, controlling their actions.  Well, controlling everyone but me; I'm not diseased.  I always make sure to sanitize everything.  Maybe everyone else is infected.  That would explain their antagonistic behavior around me.

"Is there another reason you came in today Ms. Smith?  You look tired.  Have you been getting enough rest?"  Dr. Steel must have x-ray eyes or something.  I know I put cover up under my eyes this morning.

"I've been having trouble sleeping."  I conceded with a huff.  Abandoning the now bleeding skin around my nail, I folded my hands into my lap.

"How long has this been going on?"

"Just a couple of nights."  I lied, I haven't slept in weeks.  If I washed off this makeup I'd look like a raccoon.

"What do you usually do before going to bed?  Is there anything stressing you?"  He asked, pen poised.

Stress!  Is there anything stressing you?  Oh, I want to punch him for that, but I'm a lady.  I refuse to act in such a vulgar manner.  Just wait, he'll get his.  I repeated this to myself until feeling calm enough to answer.

"I usually watch TV for a while and then I try to write a couple pages in my novel.  Normal things.  I usually go to bed around 10:30 at the latest."

"Do you still work at the gym as a receptionist?"  He asks, casting a short glance at the bag beside me.

"Yes.  It's still the only place hiring in this town.  Writing is more of a hobby; I know it won't lead anywhere."  I don't tell him that I write about him; that when I go home I write down all the things he says or does.  I don't tell him that I'm judging him too.

"What's on your mind right before you fall asleep?"  

An involuntary twitch runs through my body.  Uncrossing my legs, my left foot starts to bounce up and down.  I wasn't expecting him to ask that.

"It feels like there's someone in my room.  Watching me.  But when I turn on the light the room is empty."

"Do you think that's a real possibility?  Someone breaking into your house and watching you?"

"No," yes, of course, "it's just that if I don't check, to be absolutely sure, then he could actually be there.  Waiting."

"Waiting for what?"

"I don't know.  For me to fall asleep I guess." I searched the corners of the room again, watching for shadows.  Hoping he didn't follow me here.

"Do you know who it is or can you describe him?"  Dr. Steel capped his pen and went back to staring at me.  Did he not think what I have to say worth writing down or worse; did he already know?

"I-I don't know.  He's normal I guess, wouldn't really stick out.  An average body with two arms and legs," I began hesitantly before meeting his eyes.  "He could be wearing glasses."

"He could be anyone for all you know."  Staring, he's still staring.

"Yeah," I whisper in a hushed voice, leg bouncing even faster.

"What about him makes you so nervous?  Besides the fact that he's trespassing."

"He appears from the shadows and he always brings an ax with him.  Its blade is a rust stained silver.  His hands are stained with blood.  I always have my eyes closed, but I know he's there.  Slowly walking toward me."  Trying to explain myself brings back the sensation of being alone at night.  Of being helpless.  Is that a shadow behind Dr. Steel?

"It's a game to him.  If there's anything sticking out from the covers, a hand, foot, elbow, anything; he'll cut it off.  He'll swing the ax down right along the edge of the blanket."

"So he kills people.  Chops off their heads and limbs in the middle of the night."  The pen is back.

"Except for the head.  It doesn't count if the heads exposed."  Why doesn't he seem surprised about this?

"Why?"

"It's too easy; I would die with one swing."

"Isn't that the goal of the game? Death."

"No, it's not that simple.  Death is quick, permanent.  There's no challenge in it."

He sighs a little and I swear he just rolled his eyes, "Don't you think you're being paranoid?"

"Paranoid!  You think I'm making this all up?"  I half-shout at him, rising from my chair.  Anger rushes through me, boiling the blood in my veins.  I start to pace across his office, footsteps stomping on his dirty carpet.

"I'm sorry Ms. Smith, that came out wrong.  I believe in you.  I didn't mean to sound so callous."  Clipboard finally banished to the floor, he holds both palms toward me.  Trying to calm me like I'm some kind of wild animal.

"No, I'm sick of this.  No one ever believes me!  Your just lying to me," my pacing becomes more frantic, words and spit spewing from my mouth, "you're just jealous that I'm in Gwen's wedding and you're not!"

"Ms. Smith I'm not jealous," he sighed out while leaning back in his chair pinching the bridge of his nose, "and I thought we went over this last month.  Her name is not Gwen."

"Liar!  You're a filthy liar; as filthy as this damned carpet. You know what I think," I stopped pacing to suddenly drop back into my chair, finger pointing at his face, "I think you're the one."

"What?"  His bushy eyebrows scrunched together, but he can't fool me.  He knows exactly what I'm talking about.

"You're the one stalking me and breaking into my house every night.  Trying to slice me up one body part at a time."  

"Ms. Smi-"

"No, I done with you," I said in a level voice, reaching down to grab the duffel bag I had packed for this exact situation.  Dr. Steel was silent as I unzipped the bag, hand closing around a rough surface.  Standing up, I pulled out the ax I bought at the store yesterday.  Both hands now holding tight to the wooden handle.

"Now hold on Ms. Smi-; Hannah this isn't you," he jumped out of the chair and started to back away, "let's not do anything crazy."  He flinched right after the words left his mouth and I stopped him before he could say anything else.

"Crazy, am I.  No, this is purely logical." I advanced on him; steps slow as his back hit the corner of the room.  I lifted the ax and smiled at his tearing eyes.

"Let's play a game."






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